gym

dun b lazy
tired for one more day only
for 24 hourssss
go gym then go out the go work
i know it will b exhausting
but worthy !

always get emo after listening to emo song
hahax
well the solution ?
stop listen to emo song lo
but i dun wan to
i wan to listen to them
coz it's jus the way i feel

selfish

yes
selfish
unappreciative bitch
lol
i feel like it
skip work
for 4 days adi
i mean im still weak
dont feel like myself
cant eat properly
so i dun wanna go

2day mum is goin gym wit me
hope it gets better
i dun wan to hav to face him
or anyone
im a loner
jus leave me alone
since u dun hav the guts to come over n talk to me

i cried

yes i did
i cry always when im sick

im not in the mood
im emo
when i heard the sound here without you by 3 doors down in gym
i lagi emo
haizzz

skip work
feeling weak
anyway i was right
thought ok adi then eat eat eat
mana tau
stomach still not well
damn it

n in gym
it's hard to ignore him
y walk in front of me when im goin to walk by
it doesnt mean anything
i hav lost interest anyway
trying not to care
no biggie
he got a gal right there
when the gal not there oni he does this kind of stupid thing
typical man

sorry

`yeah
im anti social
so sorry
i dont keep in touch
im a bad fren
i noe that
it happens a lot

duno y
mayb i dun find any satisfaction
mayb i dun find myself
i duno
im lost
but im ok
alone.....
sometime it's great
when i hav my family
but mum is oni gone for 1 day n im missing her
m i too dependent on mum?
mayb
alot.....
but i duno
i love hanging out wit my mum
haizzz
m i weird or wat
anti social weirdo
boooks n gym makes me hapi
yup
lifeless thing
oh yea n mr.darcy
which is not real

something

I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if Im in love with you

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

why ?

i duno why
y i always get ahead of myself
alway so perasan
fall for the wrong guy
jus bcoz ppl treat u good then bcome soft joh
damn it
cant i b stronger
i think too much
i feel too much
i dun wanna feel anything
coz all is wrong
wat im facing right now
i think all is the wrong one
make me wonder whether i am ever getting the right wan ?
mayb nothing at all....

sculpt

healthy lifestyle!!!!
boo yaaaa
lol
trying to motivate myself
gonna start drinking some fitness drink
which is chocolate
but duno how it is supppose to tone body n build muscle
that is wat said in the magazine
should b good !!!
hope get results
kekekekke

gym gym gym ~~

10 10 10

wat an awesome day i felt when i woke up tis morning
duno y
but feeling great
mayb bcoz i got my books yesterday
at curve jalan jalan wit mum
mum got shoes
i got books
ironic izit it
im hapi wit books
lol
mum is fan of shoes
she got 3 pairs !!
while i got 4 boooks
lol

anyway 101010 !!!
im working n feeling fat coz didnt meet my expectations of goin gym
but
ai ya
nvm lu
2molo is monday n i wil b back on track !!
next week schedule is morning first then night
hopefully can squeeze more gym !!

books are reali in me
i read 10 chaps from my new book yesterday adi
i couldnt keep my hands off it
it was so <3
any books wit the Word JANE AUSTEN OR FITZWILLIAM DARCY on it
it will b mine :P

Eat Pray Love ?

n of coz for me got gym
ehehhehehehe
the movie was awesome
even though the review was not awesome
but it was awesome for me !!!

dear heart
fall in love when u r ready
not when u r lonely
so true !!! :)
motivates me !!

books r my sanctuary
got to get a new wan !!!
jus finish....
hehehe
n gym
plz dun b lazy !!!
ahhhhhhh

lazy day

it's a fri
it's my off
it's gym
but im putting it off
coz i jus wanna wake up n laze around for awhile
2day tat is....

later go bath n go mall buy movie tix !!!

looking forward to that....
i know im still fat
but sometime jus gotta take a break
hehehehe
jus excuses......=p

accept the fact tat i was born to eat =p

life's like tat

yup
read the title
tats how i feel
but 1 day....i will b wat i wanna b !
i'll show them.....=p

y adam lambert is gay
lol
he look so yeng

dun judge me
i was born not to please u
but to please myself =p

unpredictable ?

9am to 5pm shift for the whole week !
so unprepare for it
lol
i so thought was night shift
mana tau
saw schedule, check date
oi ?
realli woh ==
duno sad or hapi
jus go wit the flow
means this week get to c him
hmmmmmmmmmmmm

hope goin night gym will b ok
so long no go le....
aiksss
duno will how
plz react normally n dun anticipate much !

im jus not perfect
but im fine wit tat
dun hav much frens
dun talk much sometimes....
like to read books.....on9.....hear n find new music....gym maniac....
but tat is jus me
im anti social...
full of myself....
bad attitude sometime.....
lol
who will like me ?
i reali duno.....

fly with me

if it's you and me foreva
if it's you and me right now
so wont u fly wit me ?

hahax
it's a song
jus slept like a pig n woke up
dun like 9am to 5pm shift.....sort of
unless i got something to do
coz i oni sleep sleep sleep which is not gud

i dreamt of him
out of the sudden
lol
i duno y
it is my subconcious doin the thing
anyway i wanna c him too
but not possible if i keep working like tat.....==

he would forget me
n i would forget him....

my life sunyi keh?

wednesday

y wed is the title?
coz is body combat day at night
which actually get to c him
but wont b able to ==
coz working afternoon shift....

tengok dia pun sudah cukup le
but now once a week aso veri hard coz of my schedule

im jus trying wat i can
do wat i can
coz i wont giv up de
no matter wat
not oni love la....
work aso
studies aso
my future aso....
coz it is one freaking long way ~~

seriously !!!

skin not good !!!
body not goood !!!
shit!
seriously
wat happen to me
where is my fashion sense
wat happen to my control ?

shit !!!
come back to me plzzzz

half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you

I was made to believe i'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang,

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

But I can't stop loving you with half of my heart

trying

trying to get back on track
look at body just now
omg
so so == Big....
lol
thats all i got to say
so so == Fat
lol

at least i realise it now....
then can still turn back
bfore i turn super fat then nobody wan

later cohes canot wear then i will cry ==
face aso lotz of pimple from chocolate gua
charm la....
jia you!
always up n down de
must up up up !

fat n sick

fat fat fat
y y y
sick sick sick
y y y
aiksss
can u plz at least control ur eating !
melampau !!!
tis time reali went overboard !!

i think gym aso wont help much
lol
but i wil try
food is reali my weaknesss
aiksss

alreadi so big size le ==

do i ?

do i wanna make my own faith? Hurt better than feel nothing at all or jus dont do anything or do something? Seriously, i dont know. If i make a move, wil it make a difference? Saw him on wed. There is an attraction obviously. He kept staring, vice versa. Didnt c him close wit his gf tat day. Then there is something else. At work. But he is leaving soon so wil end up in nothing too. I dun wan a long distance relationship. He jus curi took my pic 2day coz he think it is funny. I wonder wats so funny. Lol. Stil half of my heart is occupied by gym guy. Half a year adi lo. Omg omg. Lol. Tis is my longest i guess. I oni get 2 c him once a week. Wat so special? Tel me. I aso wanna know.

love luck

like so many times bfore
so many times i wrote in blog
when u anticipate
it turns out to be nothing
like 2day
c him
nothing aso
ahhhhhhhhh
always like tat
damn it
when r u goin to feel nothing?

n i got no love luck tis year izit?
or forever?
guys go after my frens
but not me
great la
im jealous
seriously
anyway im ok single
got my gym
got my own thing
im fine
i think i wil lose my touch in love

total 6 hours gym tis week
not bad
period somemore
n makan banyak
lol
but who cares
im single =p

babi

y babi. Coz i always overthink n i hate tat! I wil not over think unless there is a clear signal. Oh bother. Plz stop. U c him then enough adi la. It wont last le. Nothing ever. Y? Bcoz ur luck sucks. N damn it, it reali is true. Im not lucky when it comes to love. Not even close. Far away. Like the sun. Too hot to b near. Anyway im jus enjoying current situation n wat it wil bring. Pastry n chocolate! Making me hungry. Lol.

my sanctuary

reading my fav books is my sanctuary. I lost my book tat day n i totaly felt down. I found it, i feel like myself again after reading it. Karaoke was ok. It is decided tat i dun fit in. But at least i improved my relationship wit them by a fraction by goin. Like the ass.manager treat me better after hearing i went out wit them. Then the laundry lady aso treat me better after i gav her the paper bag which was actualy mine. Ppl r jus so wat wei. Do something then can buy them over. Lol. But even though i dislike, but at least relationship improve in hotel. Cant wait 4 offday. Cant wait 2 c him. I miss him suddenly. Duno y. God help me.

out of place

out of place, out of mind. I dun wanna b butler. I wanna b something else. But the job at marriot. Aiks. No hope lo. Damn it. 2day merdeka. But no off. Working. Folowing senior. Fren ask me go karaoke after work. Duno wil b ok anot coz i dun blend in. Jus try my luck lo. At least im making an effort!

daydreaming

wats my daydream
you
wat im thinking
you
let me show you

i was thinking of a silent date wit you
jus holding hands walking around anywhere quietly
feeling your hand in mine

then we will take a rest at any sitting area
n i hug you n put my chin on your shoulder
feeling your body warm against mine
just one day
just one time
just one date

how long

how long will it last
would it even last

it's been 6 months
n counting i guess
since i cant stop goin to gym n stop goin body combat class
coz im so tempted to see him

sooner or later
it may end
the answer will b obvious
to me
he is just a dream
cant touch
cant hold

if you are the one

Im not over
Im not over you just yet
Cannot hide it
You're not that easy to forget
Im not over

What if?
What if im the one for you?
And you're the one for me?
What If...

If you are the one
then us meeting here is fate

This is the first I've seen your face
but there's a chance we are soul mates
I know that this might sounds crazy,
Cause you don't know my name

Don't know what tomorrow brings
but I'm still hoping
that you are the one for me
Oh and what if I had you and, what if you had me and
baby what's the reason we can't fall in love?

the truth

u wanna know the truth?
the damn truth is
im still into him?
aiks
why
i duno
oni god knows
even i duno wat im feeling
something wrong
he is a stranger
but y he mean so much

i better find your loving
i better find your heart
i wanna b forgotten
but it's so hard
the day that i was stuck on you
im reali stuck
no other guy can compare 2 you
wats so special about u

2day his gal was aso there
but he still stare
all he do is stare
me ah i avoid
lol
i look back sometime
but nothing is gonna happen aso

he must b old
he must b unavailable
so y r u stil in the same spot ?
cant move on?

erase me

cant get u out of the sunlight
cant get u out of the rain

i saw him yesterday
kept staring at me since he was alone
u c la
when his gal is there
it is like im invinsible
so plz dun kacao me if u r taken !
god reali playing wit me
i said wanna 4get
then saw him ==
great la
thx a lot
in love wit a stranger
damn it
aint liking it

I keep on running, keep on running
And nothing works
I can't get away from you
No, I keep on ducking keep on ducking and nothing helps
I can't stop missing you

why

why get so uptight when u know ppl already got gf or married or wateva? Y so emo? Y ? U dun even know them enough 2 like them. But everything about them affects ur mood. Damn it. I wanna go home rite now but cant. Feel so sucky. Ma de. Ni ma de. Lol. Sory i curse. But tis is where i can write anything at all! Loner ppl mmg like tat de. We need somewhere to frut about. Mine is here or writing on any paper i can find n tear it up if im outside. So bore.

no way

it's not highway. It's my way. I dun care wat ppl think. Tis is me. I cant get along wit ppl at work. So wat. I tried. Like eating wit them 2day but i jus dun get their jokes. So sory la. Paksa tak bagus. Force no happiness. Lol. I jus cant pretend 2 b something tat im not. It's hard i know. But no way is easier. It is a phase. My life is a moo moo. Lol. Somebody 2 love? Jus wait. Patiently. Which everyone is doin the same.

single for life?

maybe. Possibility quite high. Hahax. How ah. Hope to find bf at here or anywhere tat matters pun tak ada joh. Aiks. Lol. Im not desperate. Jus sad. All possible chances all tak dah. Coz all taken.the one tat im interested la. Sien dao wo. But who cares. There r many single n lone ppl in the world. We stil rock it! Jus dun think about it. Ignore. Entertain urself. Me myself n i.

the game

bring it on
u wanna play wit me
im ready
giv it ur best shot

still i dun feel right in my work place
no frens
im a loner
memang
typical
my life is kinda boring
i admit
but im ok tis way
dun judge me

n i aso talk better with the bangla bcoz they r simpler
lol
but i dun wanna get close wit them la of coz
i jus talk to them randomly

now oni money makes me hapi
lol
spending money
receiving money
earning cash
the net
my mags
my books
dress nice
buy nice stuff
yup thats about it
no guys
no love

utterly over

i guess im too busy to feel anything for him
go gym
dont even wanna look at him
i ownself conclude tat he has a gf
n i decide to end it once n for all
not like anything is gonna happen

i continue look
nothing happen
dont look
also nothing happen
so y torture myself?

it's all about me
lol

6 months faster over !
busy like hell!

friday 13th

super long time no write blog le↲once write then bad luck come↲actualy ok wan lo the whole period i no write blog↲i was jus tired↲now my jo
b is take care of care floor↲so far ok de but today i cried↲kena marah by stupid room att↲he think he is all tat izit? Then take a higher position la. Siao kia. Already gay adi character somemore like shit. Puasa big deal ah. I cry does not mean i m weak. Im jus gonna get stronger. U watch me la! No body is gonna bring me down! Im not afraid, to take a stand. I wil go through tis wateva the weather! U can hate me, im the bitch but im a bitch tats goin 2 do a fine damn job! Oh ya, bfore tis doom day i was hapi wan lo. Bought new phone wit my own money. First time so very proud. Then went to c angelina jolie salt. Quite nice le. Not bad. I wil go through wateva god throw at me! Bring it on! Who cares! Fba n amf! Wit my nokia 6700 slide pink! Huh!

who cares

it's alright
im a bloody big mess inside
you can try
but you wont keep me down

i'll lost
im waiting to b found
im angry for the kind of gal im not
but i will b coming back to life

dun write urself off yet
it's jus in ur head u feel left out, look down on
jus try ur best


u know u doin better on ur own
live right now
jus b urself
doesnt matter whether it's gud enough for someone else

it jus take some time
dont wory wat the bitter heart gonna say

take me home

take me down to the paradise city
where the grass is green n there's lotz of money
hahaha


slash is cool man
old but still rocking the thang
hahax

i think gym ppl sort of know im not wat i look like
many of them saw me wit sleeveless
lol
on thurs they got body combat at the concourse there
so after work
my mum feeling down
so she wanna go c even though we never go gym
then i was up for it coz i jus went to sungai wang ma
kekeke

then go there
it was raymond n malay guy doin combat
he aso was there wit his gf
i bet he dont recognise me
nobody c me wear wat i always wear
my sleeveless
my mum fren say wah ur daugther wear like tat so pretty
==
like say im not pretty other times la
lol
i wear like crap to gym n seriously i dun care
tats y ppl dun know me
i think tat day they got a good glimpse at me n my tattoo
lol
good for them =p

watch airbenders
ok jeh
nice effects
simple story
sorcerer better la !

2day went gym 2 hours cozz holiday !
woohoo!
didnt shopping coz nothing special
==
jus bought make up from sasa n a private retailer AVON
not bad

ate jap
makes my day
go home stil eat
stil hungry
but wat can i do
when i wanna eat
i eat
aiks

nike

y 2day title is nike
coz it is reali a good brand
lol
like im promoting it right now
hahahax
mum bought me my new gym clothes from nike !
weeeeee~~~~
awesome man
finaly
2molo can wear liao
next week aso morning leh !
my boss so gud!
thx ! :)

2day lari go home from work
forget to bring hp
lol
jus my luck la

bought baskin robin
totaly love it
fattening again but who cares =p
still sick
get well sooon!
coz 2molo i wanna go gymmie ahhhhhh

my boss say i veri quiet oh
i duno la
i jus like veri diam during work lo
not like in college
i b the soh har soh har gal
aiks
duno y
anyway i jus leave it
everything wil come naturally la

my remedy

is shopping !
jus spending some cash
no matter on wat
lol
like today
come back work tired n sick
but stil go out n enjoy
jalan jalan
go c gym clothes
mum say will buy for me later
kkekekeke
then go buy baskin robn coz 2day 31st !
awesome !
bought groceries wit mum
doin all this little things adi make my mood 100% better :)

thx mum !
thx shopping !
n all the little things
c whether i wan go sungai wang 2molo n py
coz i wan go buy stuff
hahax
duno whether stil there anot le.....
save n spend :D
n gym !!!!
now sick
so wait until monday oni gym back bah.....

need shopping !!!!!

lol i need 2 shop
if i dun shop i dun feel right
not hapi aso
lol
i noe i say tis week dun shop
but if im desperate
im gonna shop n i dun care =p

off day sick day
then gtg back to work liao
running nose n soar throat
great la

feeling fat coz skip gym 2day coz not feeling well
ah who cares la
must skip routine once in a while

so went out wit yee to pyramid!
not bad
nice nice
no buy stuff
lol
nothing 2 buy
prefer sungai wang le

need money ! haha! saving savin !
jia you!

big butt big big big waist
small breast
great la
big arm
big leg
lol

wateva !
i wanna eat !
sory i cant stop myself
blek !

influence

y he can influence me so badly?
he didnt come gym 2day ==
n seriously
my mood went down down down
his gf there wat
y he never come de?
i do body combat on tues n thurs coz of him ma?
coz 2day he not here
i aso dun feel like being there
lol
doe he hav power over my mood?
it's a yes according to tis situation

aiks
it's a bad thing
when a stranger can influence u!
coz u dont even know him !
thats the worst !

fall 4 someone u dont know

can i ?
is it real or jus a stupid childish feeling?

went gym for my 2 hours
i thought he oni come for body combat
mana tau after i run finish
goin to other machine
i saw him
at first i didnt
but then i turn then oi?
he avoided my gaze
n i look bhind him
the gal was there
his gf rite?
always together wan
aiksss
wateva

tats y 2day dun feel like looking at him
even though when i look at him n he look back
im the wan who broke the gaze first
but duno y 2day i feel he keep staring at me through mirror bfore class
coz everytime i look at him, he stare back....
n i dun dare hold the gaze ==
usually i wil but 2day jus wasnt it i guess

i feel like the gal aso like know something wei
aikssss
wateva again !

if u got a gf plz stop looking !
he like playing wei !
i can feel it....
aikssss

here's my lyricss of the day

You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, he caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
And I don't think that I'll see him again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

F B A

wat is F B A
fuck you bitches n assholesss

lol
bad day
so im like tat
anyway i dun wanna talk about it much
jus wanna say
ppl arent wat they seem like
things arent wat they seem too
dun get too excited
this is god's challenge!
i'll get over it !
6 months !
who cares !
off day go enjoy gao gao !

gym time whack gao gao!

Who's going to save you
When the stars fall from your sky
And who's going to pull you in
When the tide gets too high
Who's going to hold you
When you turn out the lights
I won't lie I wish that I had a superman tonight
i wish that superman was you

If somebody sent you
An angel to save you
What would you tell him

Who's going to fix you
The next time you break down
Stranded alone by the side of the road
It's your baggage that's dragging you down
Don't look back
Let it go

there's something about love
that breaks ur heart
tears u up
but you stil believe
that yours is out there somewhere
hopefully

secrets.....

thats the ost for sorcerer's apprentice !
which is awesome !
sang by one republic!

okay
my mood totaly better than yesterday
thx god ! i recover !
i always do !

2day suite wing again
i guess i wont b getting any tips anymore coz following tis senior
he oni keep tips to himself
but im like wateva
im here to learn
im not working
so anything lo

but follow him mmg more relax
coz i love suite wing anyway
so its ok i guess
get to curi makan too

then next week i morning again !
woohoo! can go gym le !
coz i feeling fat
sat n sun eat eat eat
omg....lol

n there's one more thing of coz...
but i dun wanna anticipate !
blek !

disorientated....

feeling disorientated today
lol
sleepy ah
come home aso tired like shit
==

it jus take some time
in the middle of the ride
everything gonna b alright !
jimmy eat world - the middle :)

hang in there gal !
who cares
everyone is taken anyway
we'll jus concerntrate on looking....
aiks....
dun think

sorcerer!!

awesome show
sorcerer's apprentice
woohoo!
nerdy guy super awesome
hahahahhax
clear my mind?
r u insane?
'hand signal'
little bit xD

2day i went undercover
lol
went out alone dress dun look like myself
argen cap, specs, show off tatoo !
hahahahahax
awesomeeeee
went to buy tix for the show for at night lo
super crowded wei
at night aso crowded like hell
at night wore my new clothes
i improvised xD
so hapi ~

anyway back to work!
next off day faster come !

Looking....

wats the definition of looking?
lol
jus randomly asking
if looking at you could mean something....
i wanna tell u everything
n know wat you're thinking
can i?
of coz not
coz looking at you can mean nothing....
something to me
but nothing to you

why did u choose 2 invade my mind 2day
y did u choose do stand in my line of sight today?
sometime u do, sometime u dont,
plz dun toy wit me....
im not the type who play play
if u're jus having fun, plz look elsewhere

2day thought gym was as no feel as yesterday
mana tau once keluar of locker room....
walk to combat class...
eyes in sight wit him ==
walking in aso walk past him n he look at me
he dun do tat wan lo
yesterday aso dun hav
never had bfore
y choose to do it now?
i dun like hot n cold

through out class aso eyes in sight many times liao
n tis time he reali stare back!
usualy he will jus act like nothing
why oh why
aiks...
duno hapi anot...
coz later sure disappoint de !

n he is getting smarter
when he c me looking at him through front mirror
but then i turn away n look at him through side mirror
he aso know how to turn n catch me looking at him through side mirror wo ==
i dun understand
dun wanna understand
i jus wanna savour the moment
coz i noe it wil change

2day he was jus standing there....didnt talk wit his gfsss....
y ah?
i duno
wateva
i dun wanna control anything

my lyrics

If I could write you a song,
And make you fall in love,
I would already have you up under my arm.
I used up all my tricks,
I hope that you like this.
But you probably won't,
You think you're cooler than me.

Oh yeah
So scared of breaking it
That you won't let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters
I won't ever send
Somehow it is cut so much
Deeper then they seem

I am in misery
There ain't no one
Who can comfort me

lol
nice songss cool lyrics

2day was ok ok
folow senior in hotel wing
he veri simple n simply de
not strict so veri good
then another senior she aso veri nice so ok ok...
hehe
break time go meet fren
laugh laugh....lol
thats the oni time im my talkative siao kia.....lol

gym was awesome !
super powerful 2day duno y
c him c other leng chai
no feel
lol
who cares ?

im hungry!
xD

dun b immature !

omg
this guy fren that i long forgotten
suddenly sms me n wan go out
then say wan b my bf
omg
amf la....
lucky i keep on tell him i busy....
lol
siao wan
i noe im single
n i would reali like to hav a bf
but im not tat desperate !
tis time i reali dun wanna fling
i wan a real thing
siao wan la these kind of ppl
nothing 2 do izit
go contribute something to the world la
rather think bf gf everyday

even though i think about love too
but im not like so immature
plz la grow up !

2day was an okay day
happier actually
duno y
gym influence again? lol
gym got mighty power on me !
:D

inception.....

wow
complicated n interesting show!
2day off day so out wit mum
go watch inception!
worth it !
nice nice !

morning went 2hours gym
semngat all come back adi :D
more energy n lively.....lol
duno y but im loving it
after tat went curve!

saw a few ppl i noe
but they didnt c me
so i didnt say hi
lol
i memang like tat
they see me aso oni i say hi la.....kekekeke

wore new dress n show off tattooo
LoL
this is the time can wear sleeveless n let hair down
at work wear cover all n tie hair....suffer le.....
hahahax....

aso bought my books, mag n mask !
weeeeee =p

no lovey dovey n counting!

go wit the flow.....

ahhhh
wateva
they wanna say wat they say la
wanna think im goody good girl....innocent....
wateva....
i had it adi....
i didnt answer any of their question.....
so it dont mean anything
they ownself ask.....ownself answer....i jus smile....=p

yesterday maintenance guy veri funny la
me n senior were watching tv in one of the room coz nothing to do
so he aso was there....
then he start commenting n the show....
LoL
all his comments so funny n sohai wan la...
he talk cantonese ma....lagi funny....
that was the hapi thing yesterday.....
others was ok ok....
i make mistake again....but i say i was jus following orders
aiks....dun wan tat happen again....next time i wil ownself chek too....
later kena blame is me....

im a bookwormie....
so mayb reali is good goody gal?
does it mean tat?
is reading a crime?
so many dun like to read novels.....
it's veri enjoyable lo....
in ur own world for a little while....
which i wanna do veri much....

blank.....

aiks
duno wat la
jus got 2 survive tis 6 months
this is god challenge to me !
who cares !
TAL can go through anything n wont give up

dun think anything stupid
treat everyone same same
anything weird jus move away
kena scold jus tahan
period day try to be happier
no ppl teman u jus b tough !

2 hours of gym is no joke !
n i done it for 2 days straight
tired like hell wei....

stil c him there of coz
surprise when saw him on monday
same thing same thing
jus look

plz dun lovey dovey in hotel
ppl r jus being frenly n nothing more !
like how i treat ppl too
it is vice versa
all the ppl i interested is either taken or fall for someone else
memang like tat
jus accept it

anti anti !!

okay okay
slow down gal
it is a admiration or a silly crush or puppy love or wateva u wanna call it
but i dun think u can like a person so fast?
10 days~!
too fast n u barely noe the guy
it wil b like college
after u get to know them better
then the lovey dovey will b gone
im sure....

anyway tis guy reali brighten my period moody day
i thought i was like dreading my work n it oni can get worst coz now is period time
i could nt reali smile at anyone....
but unexepctedly
god gave me a little present....a fren....
tis guy....my senior from kdu....
so the reason he so gud to me is coz im his junior
coz i noe one gal in work then treat her junior extra nice ! the junior is a guy lo....
so it's nothing
i got to remind myself tat....
ok continue....
so i was off to my break time
super early at 10.45 ==
so kinda down n no moood
on the way walking back to hotel wing using outside way
saw tis red car wanna drive in carpark
so i stop to let it pass
mana tau i saw him in the car then he wind down the window
when i saw him i was like suddenly so semangat
LOL i duno y but he cheered me up
we chat through the window while the guard chek his car....S.O.P.
i thought i wil b on my way n he on his way after the cheking
BUT!
he ask me whether wanna sit his car....
hahax....
i was like y not....
so i said ok and climb in....
now i reflect back....
everything happen so fast
lol
we chatted in car while he drove down to basement find parking lu....
he ask whether wan drop me at the backhouse there first anot....
but i said nvm....i teman him park car....
i oni look straight n didnt look at him lo....lol
should hav comment about his caror something ! ==
i was tongue tied....lol
then we chat chat laugh laugh
then finaly parted coz he go male locker room while i go female
aiks....so short but i appreciate it :)
it brighten my day thereafter
hehe
first time a guy reali fetch me in his car leh !
so im hapi =p

conclusion is no lovey dovey
he treat every gal aso like tis de
so i shouldnt think too much which is wat i always do!
no more plz !
stop stop
jus admire admire....that is enough

n omg.....now this situation i not hapi n takut
always when ppl i dun hav feelings for is after me
i always avoid them bcoz i duno how 2 react to them
i duno how 2 pretend that there is nothing wrong when there is
this malay guy which is near to his 30s say he like 19 yr old gals like me
at first i ignore it
but now im awkward n scare of him.....bcoz he too over.....
now im like wtf....aiks....
y la everytime aso like tat....
n today meet him few times liao....== y la god treat me like tat
i hope i wont ever need to folow him my whole 6 months
which the chances are veri slim ==
he aso say i 4get him adi ah? ==
he say i like veri scare him.....of coz la....siao wan....

just hope everything goes well
frens are gud enough for me
dun hav bf wont die de ! blek....

eclipse !!!

wow wow wow !
i love it !
the vamp show is awesome !
better director i think
n higher class effects
woohooo!
n pretty ppl
lol
wolf look yummy
vamp look delighful
lol
jasper like so cool !
edward same old same old
reserve goodie 2 shoes
jacob like bad boy
lol
emmett big goofball
bella improve a lot from last show....
i like her here :)
feels like reali bella from the book
she's so pretty adi
alice too!
alice n jasper awesome couple !

2dAY slept until 12pm
wake up
makan
read read
then gym
after gym rush to get ready
fetch mum then go py !
mum like getting on my nerve coz like so easy angry
but who cares la
talk to her like ada tension
2molo work again =(
aiksss
i need money la !
wan buy lotz of stuff !

predators....lol

yeah~~~~
off day 2molo
so 2day after work went jalan jalan at time square
but alone la
coz mum come from work jam ma.....
so bought my stuff
kekekekek
i <3 kl
duno y
i like walking in kl la....
kekkeke
then mum come fetch me but i drove back
go pyramid buy movie ticket!
watch PREDATORS
ok la....boleh tahan....got twist in the end.....
makan ireland potato.........my fav...yum yum
2molo is twilight!
woohoooo!

work 2day was ok....
folow another butler....
boring 2day coz no work....just folow the butler oni....
ask me whether i got bf
tel me whether wan consider the maintenance guy that is 21 yrs old
lol
the guy not bad la....but i didnt talk to him
he say he dont smoke....no clubbing...play sports n video game wo....lol
duno whether real anot....so funny....
there's another guy in my butler there tat is aso 21 yrs old
totaly the opposite....suka drink.....smoke....clubbing...
geng la.....so opposite....
but jus frens !
keke
no lovey dovey....
i geng leh?
wakakakkaka
i reali will appreciate every of my off day lo i tell u
kekekekekk jia you !

mixed feelings....

hoho
my sis has left adi
aiks
alone again
when she here i sometime feel irritated
when she not here i miss her dearly
aikz...
anyhow....my life must continue!

2day not bad...
work not bad....
finaly get to deliver on my own room service....
got rm20 tips
woohoo!
gym reali make me feel better
2day went gym again
saw him again
mixed feelings lo...
i duno wat i am feeling
but my heart is not reopen yet
coz there is nothing
jus looking
2molo one more day then i off day lu!
cant wait !

my heart is closed

yup
it is
im gonna close it up
seal it up
sew it up
coz nobody holds the key to it
gym guy
it's reali over
told u the day wil come
when it will stop
n it has stopped
i duno wat 2 say
there r no words
he avoiding
so i aso avoid
anyway i didnt do anything stupid like tel him how i feel
so it's okay i guess
wat u never tel wont hurt you

fren less
boy less
lol
aiks
duno le
see how it goes lo

butler

i start work adi
on 1st july
will veri no time update blog lo
for 6 months gua...
hahax
coz vri tired n lazy
unless i super rajin !
no guys aso
aiks
wont get to pak tor lo
gym guy n everything aso boh liao lo...
sienzzzz
haizzz
no love for 6 months!
or mayb forever
xD ahahahhahax
coz i gt no frens
n so boring
after sis leave then i think i oni got my mum lo
i can b a lou ku po adi
haahhahhax
destined

im a loner.....

lol
this is a korean song
from a group CN BLUE?
i think that is it....
im a loner?
mayb i am
like to b alone sometime
exception my sister kacao me to teman her
hehehe
i like to read book hear music on my own
of coz watch movie in cinema i would like someone
my mum is cool if i dun hav my frens
im a homey?
mayb....home is where the heart is?
hahax...
i think so....
sometime i prefer to laze around
but not more than 24 hours....
next we hav my gym
the top most propriety on my list
veri important
sory im so obsesed wit it
but it is jus me ok?
accept it or just pass....
lets see
wat else?
loner, homey, gym addict.....
do things my way.....dun care how ppl feel....lol

im sorry....

sorry
i noe sometime i am not a good fren...
when ppl ask me go gathering
im jus so lazy....
i prefer one on one
not a whole group thing
dun reali like open houses or parties.....
i like to go to malls n jalan jalan outside....
parties ouside....gathering outside is fine by me
but not in house....
forbia in house gua....
sorrry
but when you need me
i'll always b there for you....

it has to be you....

that is a song title
from a korean drama call CINDERELLA STEPSISTER

im not cinderella
n i will never be
coz im not kind hearted or anything
im selfish
i only care about myself at times
im rude
i dun care about my elders bsides my mum, bro n sis....
thats all i care about
you know who's the cinderella?
my sis
she's like the angel
she smile at everybody
she's goood to everybody....
i hope she find her true love one day :)

找不到人說 心裡的寂寞
找不到人懂 怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定 在一起的那个人
很多人都像我 一個人過生活

我在等一個人 在等我的永恒
告訴我 愛不單行 別害怕

will cinderella sister have her own fairy tale too?
yes i believe everyone has one
jus the process of it is different
if you lose one will you hav another one?
yes
when the door closes
surely there is a window
if oni you try to find it

喜欢你怎么办

my forehead has like a big sticker on it which tell people not to come near....
my sis say is bcoz of my devil stare....lol
scary.....hahax....
but if i dun smile....or i am deep in thought
my face memang like tat
wat do you wan me to do wo
n im not a faker
sory
i dun like means i dun like....
got a problem?

do you know....

do you know....
im waiting for the day when i meet him somewhere else besides gym place
where i c him with another gal
holding hands n happy wit each other
yeah....that will toaly break my heart....
bcoz now im in the clueless zone
duno whether he is taken or not....

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

another day

i duno wat to write le
but i think i wil write away anyway
coz i need to write this down
lol
woke up
eat eat
wash movie wit my sis
BACK UP PLAN
jennifer lopez and some handsome guy
lol
nice show la...
make me lovey dovey all over
read my historical romance aso
make me think think think about.....somemore got who?
then gym time....
finaly....
went wit mum
duno y feel like in quite a good mood
laugh wit mum the whole way
lol
laugh wit her frens too
which i seldom do
saw him
as usual....
wat happpen to his gang ah i wonder?
him alone again
try to not look at him
coz mum fill finish water go stand near him
then of coz i go stand wit her right.....==
i dun look at you but i am looking at you
lol
then at first start classs le cant c him through mirror
but after little while he came into view a little bit
then more n more.....
is that a sign?
or he wanna avoid me at first?
i dun get it
i jus enjoy looking at him tats all
push up time pun sama
he walk....but head turn the other way....
2 can play this game okkkkk
i aso turn my head....
but he look so handsome......haizzz.....
watever.....
saw his car in the basement on the way home
trying to look for any clue....
lol
his car very empty wei....
no traces of feminine touch......is that a gud sign? i duno....lol
family man car aso veri simple de ma....
example....my uncles car....so doesnt mean anything....
i oni saw mcd sticker, road tax sticker.....
then finaly a clue !
rhythm avenue sticker !
i check online for the word
rhythm avenue is usj 19
the new place wit the new carrefour n giant nearby
totally the other side of my address ==
he stay so far....but he actually come here for gym....
not bad eh....
i hope he wil continue to do so....
when i start training duno how le =(

not over just yet

emo day 2day
i duno y
think period overload
lol
wake up in the morning
feeling crappy
lol
hair so messy
so tied up to go out
go out eat sakae sushi
no salmon but lazy to order
so makan makan, sis order wat eat order
eat from the converyor belt
then makan habis go carrefour stock up groceries
mood lagi down
i dono why
even my mum call me to confirm my training at ritz carlton aso like no feel like tat
shit la...
but im reali hapi i got the ritz carlton
thank god
begins in july!
wish me luck!

mood no gud until didnt feel like goin gym 2day
duno whether he got go anot leh....
haizzz
i duno wat to do wit him la....
stop invading me!
i think it is coming to an end
will i miss it
yes i will
of coz
handsome stranger
man of my dreams....of my mind....
6 months of training will get me over you i guess
but he was like the perfect of not so perfect.....
hahax....
siao lang....
poetry meh....
im imagination again....
dun mind me....
im a real romantis
waiting for my romance.....

thank you but nothing.....

wow
yet another surprise
i can recognise his back adi
lol
coz 2day i saw this guy's back again
n straight away i was like IT"S HIM
lol
alone again
but he stil talk to gals de la....
n other people....

didnt reali look at him 2day
coz i period
no mood ah ==
jus gave a few intense stare
he aso nothing wan....
haiz....
push up tat time suddenly he wan bhind me ==
i duno why
im not hapi n not sad
coz nothing happen aso
he bhind me, so wat?
it doesnt mean anything...
he can place his mat anywhere he wants....

my conclusion is that
nothing wil ever happen between him n me
he totaly wont make a move, mayb he dun even feel anything....
im positive
it's up to me
but do i wanna do it?
i duno.....==
i feel like wirting a love letter
n jus put it at his car
that is as far as i wil go if im gonna do it....
haiz
but duno la...
the month is coming to an end
if everything goes smoothly
i wil start training on 1st or 5th july....
i noe the love letter wont help me much
coz he wont noe who i am
n mayb he think it is just a joke
but nvm
i jus wanna express myself....
i think i get to see him these 2 days becoz the next 2 days i wont get to see him....
i hav that feeling
coz the tues n wed coach is not here....
so mayb he wont b there....
aiks....
but anyway thanks coz i get to see him.....
i appreciate it... <3

wow surprise......

wow
serious.....
reali...
unexpected
hahaha....veri funny.....lol
anyway
started my day wit waking up....
lazy lazy....
get ready for gym
wake my sis....
then after tat
dad fetch me go gym
then they all go makan lo....

then at gym
i saw tis guy
wit his back facing me...sitting down there....
i straight away thought that the guy look like him
jus sitting there....
then i think....no way....he dun come on a weekend
so i didnt bother

so i jus went in locker room
get ready
n walk out again to fill my bottle water
then i look again
then reali is him wo....
i was like wow....
hahahax....
he wore sleeveless la....so didnt reali look like him
hahax....
but stil steal my breath away....
he was alone....hmmmmm...not wit the gang.....
i pura pura ignore him
when actually i noe he is so obviously there
hahax....
i pretend to look around but i was actually looking at you <3
anyway no progress between he n me
if a guy is interested.....surely he wil b the first one to approach rite?
rite?????
bcoz i duno whether i can take it if i kena reject 2nd time ==
can i?
duno duno
no answer there....
ahhhh
but stil i thank god today for letting me see him
:)
at least stil got that....

p.s. i love you

i stil love the show
it stil giv me the feeling
which i wish i would hav
haizz
nice show wei
super awesome
gerald butler.....
love you till the end

2day went cycling it sis n dad for father's day
i love it !
i love outdoor, nature n sports !
woohoo~~~
nice day.....
ehehehehhe
i love challenge tooo
climb hill
see fishes....
weeee~~~~~<3

i love you
i hope i'll find you one day
even though i aso like to go find u
but i duno la....
it's the last week adi....
should i do something
will i regret it....
hmmmmm

so fast.....

i jus look at the calendar recently
n i jus realised i got less than 4 times to c him la !
it is 2 times oni to b corectly
means next week is the next week le....
ahhhhhh
must appreciate it no matter wat happen
wanna write a love letter?
i duno
hahahax....
next week is my last chance le....
huhuhuhuhu

n my tattooo skin is peeling like onion
lol
anyway i guess it's gud news
means that it is healing !
n i would b able to show off soon
yeah......
lol =p
love of my life
i miss you....
love of my life....
lol
it's a song

haywire mode again.....

lol....
here i amm again....
lovey dovey
lol
coz i jus saw a love thing on tv
so thinking of him
which is not a good thing at the moment
since im gonna c him next week oni

n tattoo getting better n better....
weeeee~~~~ <3
im hapi....

i oni got eyes for you?
love of my life?
looking at you through the mirror?
is not the thing?
is not me
but no choice right?
i duno...

sometime

sometime
im crazy over him
sometime
im ok
nothing
no feeling
like 2day
no crazy feeling like reali got 2 see him
reali miss him
2day tak ada

stay home the whole day
nothing t do
anyway rest awhile coz jus got the tattoo ma
then at night go gym lo
go gym aso half coz of him
so scare that mayb he wont b there
but lucky he was there
i saw him
but he like nothing aso....
so nothing lo...
look at him only lu
then balik....
balik tat time saw him sitting there coz i never bath
so balik early...
he jus sit there....like a normal dude
2day not feeling strong for him
hahax
duno y....
nothing happen 2day wit him ats y i disappointed bah
thats y i dun like when i anticipate
anticipate then will b nothing de...
haizzz....
sAw him once oni tis week
hope wil c more next week
coz i goin training le
haizzz
i count count count
get to see him 4 or less more times oni....
if each of us aso dun miss the class...
hmmm....
duno la...

do i ? am i ?

ahhhhhhhhhhhh
i got my taytooooo
xD
pain like shit wei
but worthy i guess
a love shape
represent all my love of my life
hehehehehe
on my right shoulder
make me cant go gym 2day !
ahhhhhhhhhhhh
make me cant c him 2day !
n i cried bcoz of that.....
lol
i think is my emotion haywire
the tattoo....then canot go gym coz of tatooo
so sad....then cant c him.....so emotion haywire i guess....
lol
something wrong wit me
or i reali reali reali tis time stuck on him?
haizzz
i duno la
when my sis say 2molo mayb let me go gym
i was like so hapi u noe !
siao liao.....hahax....
anyway
i jus know wat im feeling right now....
i miss him !
veri much !
does tat means i like him veri much too ?
i duno....==
i miss him.......!!
2day no go gym veri sad.....
reali veri sad....
but i hope 2molo i can go !
plz!
n plz he b there !
it's world cup now
but i hope he wil b there 2molo !
plz!
plz plz plz plz.....
lol
siao liao....ahahahahax....

love story.....

ok here is my love story
if i ever get my love story
starring me n him
heehee =p
i know im crazy
imagination running wild wit me

well....
it'll b tat he finally hav the guts to talk wit me
n we r goin out
all the lovely dates
but we still act like we duno know each other in gym
hahahhax
then finally after awhile....
getting to know more about each other
we r finaly offcially <3
hehehehe
so my fb status aso change liao....
take a lot of sweet sweet pics wit him
hahax....

yup ts is all that i have think
jus veri veri sweet
but of coz where got i so lucky....
heehee
jus a story to share at the moment

AMF !!!!

wat is AMF?
amigos mother F er !!!
hahax....
from the movie A team :)
love it
sohai 4 man in movie
funny like hell

exam finaly over....
so went out lu....
with mei yee <3
we went karaoke first lol
tat day the sound system super good lo
wakakaka....
then jalan jalan
im reali a bookwormiee
i bought lots of reading material =p
so wat
i love it
my sis complain
but i dun care
ahahahahahax....
then saw the A team movie together wit sis n frens
coz she got extra tix so me n mei yee aso see
so nice....
eheheehehe
lotz of people
mei yee say she smitten onto tat one guy
hahahaax...
i told her tat guy look like jus come out of anime....
but not my type lo.....
but still saw lots of leng chai at 1u....
but stil i was hoping i could c him
i dun wanna jus c him in subang parade or at the gym
i wanna c him somewhere else la....
when did i bcame like tat
is he even tat worthy
im here all so loyal
mayb he there duno doin wat....
lol
heading for a heart heart heartbreak !

my mood change like the clouds !!!

keep on sleeping sleeping sleeping
alarm actualy put veri early de
but then keep putting later to wake up...
duno y
pillow too nice i guess....

then go chee chee house first....
study n chat wit her lo....
then go skool for exam....
hot like hell
always sweat like hell ==
dun like lo....
haizz....

eng exam i jus simply do oni gua
no mood to do aso
then fai fai come out....
then wait for chee they all....
then chit chat....
then balik lo....
duno la....
i think i bond best wit chee oni lo
other frens like aiks....
duno la....
hope will recover soon

then balik rumah
makan
tengok sis
suppose wan sleep but didnt sleep coz got tis great movie on astro
it is called WHY DID I GET MARRIED
saw it wit sis
this movie a lot of drama wan
gao funny lo...
make me scare of marriage....lol
but coz got gym so cant c finish the show....

went to gym wit a good mood coz of the show
lol
walk in to class lo....
saw him lo
aso saw a lengchai standing at my place there
but i wasnt interested.....lol
geng leh
then i notice oh
he was looking at me through the mirror....
i duno whether i perasan or not...
but when i look at him through the mirror...
i saw him looking back too...
izit my mind playing tricks on me
hahahaha....duno...dun care.....

then through out the class....
i keep looking at him through the side mirror....
coz now front mirror cant see him anymore....
but nvm....side mirror is also good....
i look away everytime his head turn in my direction....
he is seriously occupying my head...
hahax....

then push up tat time aso leh....
i thought wont b able to see him....
coz usually push up cant c him de ma....
mana tau when cooling down tat time....
i notice my line of sight included him in it....
hahaz....
so lucky....
n mayb it s my imagination
but through out the whole class
i can always c his head turn in my direction when he think im not lookin....
hahahahax....
im jus saying oni!
mayb it's true...mayb it's not....
i duno....n mayb i dun wanna know....im content i guess....

then put back the mat tat time aso
i always c him through the mirror so he wont noe ma
mana tau tis time when i look through the mirror
i saw him looking through the mirror at me too....
lol
mayb it's my mind trick again la....hehe
i stil dun dare look at him but who cares
not like he made anything to wanna know me better
i will resist of not making the first move
unless im desperate
lol....
im hapi like tat i guess
i noe it will end someday
tats the day heartbreak will come....

then dad n sis late fetch me
mood getting foul
then go back home
kena mum marah
yeah it jus get worst
thought hapi hapi
but then it end in misery
great la
thx la....

other things.....

there is aso other things about my life bsides him =p
today exam sucks!
i gave up n didnt care
wasnt in a mood anymore....
then chee suddenly say wan go watch movie
i told her i was up for it since i drove today
then she aso serious so we went to watch SHREK FOREVER AFTER !
i rate it ok ok la
coz saw so many shrek movie bfore it
i always think tat the first movie was the best !
where shrek rescue fiona....

then after tat went home
on the way home got news from lecturer about my training
finally got interview on friday
wish me luck ! <3

then balik enjoy wit sis
saw this great love movie LEAP YEAR
i totally love it
feeling all lovey dovey today
thats y mayb today crazy bah....
somemore wat happen wit him....
even more siao.....

god playing wit me again?!?!?!

well
obviously always like tat
when u say oh i dun wanna care about it anymore
god put it right in front of ur face
n i didnt take the chance again
bcoz i already decide not to take it
always like tat
n tis time it's nearer n closer
it's driving me nuts !
but he didnt do anything aso
so mayb he also not interested la
god jus make me hapi for awhile oni
haizzz
well here's how it goes

went early to subang parade coz sis n mum wan hav fish market for dinner
so folow them lo
i didnt eat la coz later got gym
after dinnet went grocery shopping at cold storage
was peacefully shopping n enjoying wit my crazy sis
wasnt thinking about anything

then come the time to pay at the cashier
aso jus like normal putting the stuff on counter n in trolley
but!!! suddenly!!
i look at the person bhind my mum
lining up after us to pay
guess wat
it's him ==
i aso duno hapi or not
i was too shock for words
i jus continue to talk to my sis
act like i didnt care
act like i duno
he wore working clothes....
handsome la....shit...
after paying
sis push trolley
i was like walking in front
coz like trying to avoid him
but everytime i turn bhind to talk to my sis n mum
he is there ==
i scare he heard everything we said....
he was alone.....
after he pay finish aso bhind us....
==
then halfway walking out of parkson....
he walk faster so he was in front....
i jus stare at his back....
saw him walking to the left while me sis mum walk on the right
so thought will jus c him in gym later
mana tau ==
when i was saying gudbye to sis n mum at the lift
duno y he appear bhind again ==
so he was walking bhind me as i walk to gym
so he actualy got the chance to talk to me if he wan to rite?
he aso didnt do anything
halfway walkin aso he gone adi
coz when i look bhind he not there....
so do you think he is interested
i dun think so....
he got the same chances i aso got
he is a guy
if he wanna make a move
he got a chance there
but he didnt
so y must i do it?
even though i wanna do it jus to get over it
but im sure that when i wanna do it
god wont giv me a chance again
always like tat
when i 4get...here he is in front of me
when i remember.....he is no where to b found....
typical.....
u noe wat sis comment?
say he look older a lot
n look like a married guy ==

disconnected

feeling disconnected
from my course
from my frens
duno y
feel like no mood
y la....
hope tis past soon!

now exam
veri sien lo
dun feel like it....

bought new sport shoe for gym <3
weeee~~ <3
white with green sole
hahax
i veri like
n veri comfortable when body combat :)

well here's a song
for you <3

I'm sitting across from you
I'm dreaming of the things I'd do
I don't speak, you don't know me at all

For fear of what you might do
I say nothing
But stare at you
And I'm dreaming, I'm tripping over you

Truth be told, my problem's old
You mean the world to me but you'll never know
You could be cruel to me
Why go risking the way that I see you
That I see you, that I see you, that I see you, that I see you, that I see you"

Conversation's not me at all
I'm hesitating, only to fall
And I'm weighted, I'm hating everyone

Could it be...you feel for me?
In any possible similarity
If it's so, how would I know?
You'll never know me at all...

I'm standing across from you
I've dreamt alone now the dreams won't do
<3

maybe just

mayb i dun wanna hav another chance
i survive the week without much thinking about him
so should b a good thing right?
yeah yeah yeah
i hope so
god help me

the incident of the lift reali puts me off
so mayb i jus think about it everytime i get lovey dovey
yeah yeah
tats a good way to stop
i hope
n how he avoid my gaze....
wont come near me...
yeah....
think oni all about tis....
yeah....lol...i think....

dun funk with my heart

god is trying to test me i think
i mean
i wrote the paper
for him
but in the end
i was a coward n tear it up
i should not hav done tat
bcoz god gave me a chance
but i was too scare i blew it

sis drive me go gym
we park car coz she wan jalan jalan
then suddenly when finding carpark.....
saw him driving car....
i was like shock until duno wat 2 do
i keep pretend tat i didnt c him
shit
i should b braver !
now i regret it....
i didnt walk up to him n talk to him
haizzz....
i jus kept sticking to my sis
bcoz i was scare....
damn it.....
he drove a purple reddish proton wira
i even jot down the number plat....
lol
jus in case....
i know.....im crazy.....

anyway tis make me hapi
but wat he did didnt make me hapi
we were walking to the lift
he was bhind
then as we got there
wait for life to come lo
as i turn back to see him....finaly got the courage....
u know wat he do?
he freaking move away n walk out....
i was like wtf....
tat is like total rejection right?
he cat even stand begin in the same lift as me?
come on la....
am i tat bad?
haizzz
total heartbreak man tat one....

then gym time lu....
saw him....
my eyes only hav him
but i dun think he has me
i reali jus wanna walk up to him n ask him is he single n get over it....
haizzzz
god dun play wit me
is either u giv me another chance....or dun giv me at all
dun giv me hope if you r goin to bring me down again.....

y must i always make the first move?
i wan to make it jus to clear tis thing up
so i wont think about it anymore....
i even went down to basement again just to see whether i can get another chance....
but i jus saw his car....
haizzz...
im reali stupid right?
yes i am....

will u give me another chance?

my stupid love letter to you.....

hey you !
the guy standing over there
i know we dont know each other
but i think i got tat feeling for ya

i know im not the one on ur mind
but i wanna b that gal tat take your breath away
must i take the first step so that you will know
wats goin on inside of me

when i dun see you, im disappointed
when i see you, im sad
i cant get you outta my head
looking at handsome guys is no cure
i only compare you to them
baby cant you see
i pretend that i dun care
but actually i care the most !

if you're not single
it's time for me to put you bhind

but if you're single
i wish that u will give me a chance
to show you how i feel

looking at you 2 times a week is not enough
how i wish tat i could see you everyday
the guy standing there
wats your name whats your number
i wanna get to know you
would you give me a chance
i may younger than you a lot
but hey age does not matter to me
i hope it does not to you too

im just holding on to 'what if'
by confssing my feelings to you
if it fails
this is the end.....

this canot, that canot....=/ wat can ?

seriously
something broken in me
i think
lol
after presentation
ok ok lo
see guys in skool aso nothing wei.....==
reali broken joh......lol
sis fetch me back.....
then go home makan makan....
then rest
then sis wake me up to go carrefour to buy her stuff....
went carrefour.....
saw quite a few guys.....
guys that look like they work n veri grown up.....
lol
but i feel nothing?
seriously ?
i duno.....==
wtf....
i like c them....but i think of him? haizzz....
siao deh adi me....

then gym time
i keep looking around for him !
omg ==
then didnt c him....
class start aso he never come
then feel disappointed woh ==
haizzz....
then suddenly after music start....
when i turn to mirror to look
eh?
saw him sitting bhind there tying his hand for combat....
lol....
he late wo....
hapi to see him wo....
== damn....
but then i dun think he interested adi...
cant c him through the mirrors liao...
he would look at me anymore....

wat to do la !!!
dun c him aso sad
c him aso sad
dun look at him sad
look at him aso sad
arghhhhhh
should i confess?
i feel like confessing
then b sad n heartbroken
then get over it
not hanging here like an idiot....

i rather hurt than feel nothing at all.....

emo-ing

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

<3

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

Cause I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Cause I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Instead of going under.

sum41 - with you

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.

<3

weezer - prefect situation

What's the deal with my brain?
Why am I so obviously insane?
In a perfect situation
I let love down the drain.
There's the pitch, slow and straight.
All I have to do is swing
and I'm a hero, but I'm a zero.

Tell me there's a logic out there.
Leading me to better prepare
For the day that something really special might come.
Tell me there's some hope for me.
I don't wanna be lonely
For the rest of my days on the earth.

<3

so what

so what
who cares
my heart has already been broken duno how many times
does it make a different tis time ?

i can do wateva i want
i want to look
means i wan to look
not like im stalking him or anything
it's not a crime
he cant sue me....
im not doin anything wrong.....
im jus goin wit my feelings !!!

worst of all

no need to say
im disappointed
everything is jus so not.....
aiksss
i aso duno wat to say
assign bye bye
him aso bye bye
wateva
everytime aso like tat
y m i like tat?
i dun wan look anymore
i dun wanna feel anymore

waiting death sentence.....

ok
now im in library
reach here like early in the morning
where there was no people
but now like getting more n more
no privacy
lol
but obviously rite
it's the library
people come here to study n do stuff.....
lol.....

waiting waiting for the presentation
help~~~~~
surely =_____=

stopped....

this day has finaly come
yes
i cant denied it
im sad
im heart broken
but u mmg know adi rite?
tis wan u ownself cari de
is your own fault lo....

you anticipate again the oni 2 days in the week tat u can c him
2day even tie hair properly n wear earrings
but what did u get?
disappointment
2day he standin the middle
he didnt stand bside his gal
i duno y
but he in the middle i cant c him
so he trying to avoid me rite?
haizzzz
totally avoiding me.....

well tis is the end i guess...
no more for me
make me dun feel like goin to comabt on mon n tues
haizzz
cant wait till i training then mayb no need c him anymore....

you look so beautiful today
i tried to look at you but you move away
i guess that means that is not okay
what can i do?
my heart is turning grey....

permenant heartbreak !
i'll jus b by the sidelines
looking at him.....
doin tat is not a crime rite?

lazy lonely gal....

huhuhuh
reali lazy
got assignment n presentation
but im here
slacking
lol
i noe
i will face the consequences later =p

im still thinking of you
can i b blame?
not something i can control
i hate tis part right here
when u r single
dun have anyone to hug
or to lean on
the closest u hav is ur family

u noe
the 3 days when i was alone
coz mum went singa land
n waiting for sis to come back
i was so lonely
i really wanted someone special to b by my side
someone for me to hug
haizzz

after fetch mum n sis from airport
i hugged my mum to sleep in the car
it was the best feeling ever :)
i love family <3
i aso hope i will find u soon
i want you so bad <3

outta my outta my head....

i must b outta my head
coz y m i so loyal to him ?
sometime there is leng chai at gym
but i dun care or dun wanna look at them
hen hao xiao lo
y must b so loyal to him?
mayb ppl jus toying wit u, u pun tak tao ah
must b somehing wrong wit me
not my bf aso so loyal
siao lang
i stil can look at other guys de !

you oni c him twice a week !
one single thing aso duno about him!
siao !

suddenly emo
something wrong wit me
coz now home alone
aiks....
he is nothing but a crush
im sure....
face reality gal !

the meaning of tis....

finaly
the day tat i anticipated has come
first body combat class after 10 days....
i have been dreaming about wat it will be like
but of coz my dream is better than reality

mom followed me
so i was no lonely
of coz saw him la....
d0no wat tis mean....
but jus let me talk the crap of 2day here ok? =p

mom went out first....
so when i went out....
go looking for her....
saw him through glass window...
he adi standing there wit his gf....(I THINK!!!)
u noe y i think?
bcoz they everytime 2gether....
arghhh
idc....
my mum was standing where i can c him veri clearly ==
anyway after tat we jus went in lo
the new floor
lol
reali veri new....
makes the room bigger or it is jus i long time no been inside joh...lol
then the mirrors like so clear
i could c him practically from anywhere....
lol
anyway i try to avoid looking at him at first
but after little while
aiksss
couldnt resist
so sorry....
lol

conclusion is nothing happen ok !
so no big deal
still the same
you know nothing about tis guy....
wats the point?
so exciting to look at him twice a week which will result in nothing?
forget forget forget !
which u apparenty cant unless you stop gointo combat
or he stop goin to combat !
ughhh
see how it goes during july
when training comes
i wont b able to see him anymore....
good or bad?
mayb for the better....

tal
u always hav crushes that would never ever result in anything
it is always moot
so enjoy while u can
bfore it goes away....

robin hood !

wow
im so tired but hapi !
went 2 c robin hood n furry vengeance !
wakakakaka
robin hood is the bomb !
furry vengeance iis jus ur other comedy
but still nice coz got the brandon guy from mummy
russel crowe look so handsome
lol
i know he is old but ada gaya la xD

2day is at midvaley
went there early early
to buy ticket
then makan makan
jalan jalan
buy my black high heel for training n interview
lucky got one :)
then so bought a paper straw hat !
lol
i been wanting a straw hat but all so expensive
im hapi to get tis coz it oni cost me rm15 !!!!
weeeee~~~<3
then of coz bought my mags aso...
hehehe
saw the lollipop phone
feel like wanna buy le.....
huhuhu
take my money go shopping or buy phone eh???
if im buying it
i wanna decide bfore my training lo.....
coz after tat i think i wil lose interest liao....
hmmm
c how it goes
i stil hav time.....

o ya...one more thing....

n i hate of not seeing you !
i may lose interest in you !
i mean im like tat ok....
i dun c the fellow anymore....
so surely my eyes will look around right?
1 week is no joke
especally a guy u dun even noe
u jus look at him oni

irritating !
if he care he should at least come....
but noooo
u dun see him.....
n im tired....
i went after bfore n it fail
i duno whether i can take another wan....
enough heartbreak !

n some ppl cant move on?
like my fren
she reali love her ex
stil will accept him back anytime
n mayb my mum too...
even she dun show
actually stil care about my dad gua....
they r not the oni guy in the world !
but these feelings i wont understand
u cant tell a person to give up when they stilhave feelings
mayb i never reali loved a person bfore....
havent understand it yet

i hate....

u know wat i hate ?
a lot of stuff
lol
who doesnt?
but now im gonna cover on one topic oni i guess
coz its getting on my nerves

someone that is not satisfied wit their own work
dno how 2 improve it themselves
keep saying oh ur wan better la.....which is such a fraud
keep saying oh im gonna fail....blah blah blah....
always last minute
i mean even worse last minute then me leh!
me already bad enough adi lol.....
keep saying from start of sem
oh i got a lot of idea....
i jus duno how 2 put into words....
==
means no idea la....
last time i helped
tis time no way~~~im done helping

o yeah
i aso hate ppl tat not on time
dun past up on time
dun giv me my stuff on time....
==
haiz
unfortunately we have to live wit the weaknesses
i noe
i aso got....
will try to improve
or at least do a better job
not lie around n frut over what is already happen
which u cant change....
dun b so negative ppl !

craving shopping =(

shit
so many nice stuff
wanna buy
huhuhu
but body size still not nice enough to fit onto everything that i wan ==
y laaa
i so big size....n meaty
lol
well it's jus who i m!
who cares !
love me or hate me =p

gym 2day was booooooring....
run 15 mins.....do 2 other machines....for 15 mins each tooo....
then tats it....
lol
boring la....
but at least got sweat la....
leg aso pain
coz long time no run le...
doin tis for a week....
walao eh...
can tahan gua....

i wanna b a billionaire so freaking bad ~~~~
new song....
lol
serious...not kidding
by travis mccoy ft bruno mars
enjoy !

1 week no combat !!!

dont call my name
im not your babe ~~~
lol
lady gaga new song
alejandro <3
love it
kekeke

well 2day mother's day
hapi mother's day
my mood ok ok oni lo....
haizzz...
feel like something missing
speak wit mum aso like got something not right =/
hmmmm
i hope it past soon.....

1 week no combat
so back on running in gym lo
nothing to do aso
dun go then aso canot
i feel that gym is part of my life
i never go like no moood le....
==
if this a gud thing or bad thing?
gym addict?
gym obsessiveness?
i duno
but exercise is gud right?
i dun think is that bad
lol

sis faster come back !
studies faster over !
i need to shopping !!!
lol

prayers answered?

no complains
lucky~~~
mayb bcoz i was prepare
when she throw me question
i was ready to answer them
lol
anyway finance we all die la hah
weeee~~~<3
im stil goin gym to relax....
i dun care.....
be hapiiiii~~~~~

im not afraid to take a stand !
holla if u think that u been down the same road !

y my love prayers havent answer yet?
lol
anyway i didnt pray for love la
i dun do that
even though everytime i got think about pray for love
but in the end i always pray for the protectiong of my family :)
if u pray for love
it's like you r so selfish le...
i dun wan to b that person.....hehe
=p

aiya
i can get over tis !

it suckSSS

im sorry
but sometime my frens just sucks
lucky the finance i ownself take it on by myself
even though im suffering now
but i dun regret my decision
they keep on saying
oh i feel bad bcoz i never contribute lo
blah blah shit la....
bcoz to me....when i ask them to do something
i think they need like a decade to finish
lol
geng leh?
like now, tis gal, not mentioning name....say oh i will get it for you ah...
say duno how many days joh
now last minute aso canot giv me
wtf la u all
then the other one...still asking me how 2 do...
ask her do simple thing aso duno how 2 do....jus help me find pics aso so fucking hard?
ma hai la u all
i duno how they goin 2 survive la....
so sory
i noe im cursing
n mayb some familiar ppl will get to read tis
i apologise first
im writing this coz i realy beh tahan joh
if the other gal never do stuff but keep tell me i didnt add this shit that shit
go die la her
she think she boss meh
wat aso duno
next time
i wanna b the bad guy
good guy the worse....
anyway tis assign i aso noe i wont do well
so we all die together
dun blame me
blame me....well F them la mother F er.....

izit wrong?

izit wrong to like a guy veri much older than u ?
coz jus now i saw the korean drama
huhuhuhu
so kersian
jus bcoz the guy has a son, but single parent
n the girl he like is 10 years younger than him
then people critisize them ==
so bad lo....
haizzzz
if it''s true love
does it really matter?

jus bcoz the gal is young n never experience love bfore
her fren told the guy to back off
say that he should not take her youth away
i was like wtf
everybody has different love story lo
like this guy
he is a single parent wt a son
he aso deserve to have a second chance in love jus like anyone else ma
if the gal truly love him back too
y should we break them apart?

anyway mayb now im saying this coz i got a crush on an older guy
lol
possibly 10 years older too
lol
but i dun mind....
age does not matter to me....
even though my sis said i was crazy.....lol
mayb it will end one day.....

goin nutty

huhuhuhuhu
yesterday he didnt come
why why why ? =(
not seeing him
im not used to it
wasnt myself during body combat yesterday
wondering where he gone
his gal frens was there ma.....==

saw other guys
but nothing compared to him
huhuhuhuhu
im reali stuck or wat?

my high skool fren lidya working at my gym le
lol
yesterday she called
i somemore thought who izit
then when i go gym tat time go c her lu
nice catching up wit her :)
after combat somemore sent her home
hehehee
special service for special fren.....^^

yesterday would have been perfect if oni he came
haizzzz
1 week not gonna c him coz gym renovating the studio floor
so no body combat for a week!
ahhhhh
how how how
if faith is on my side
plz let me meet him outside ><
i wishing veri hard
but 2day my horoscope say let things come naturally....
got to wait again ==
waiting is the worse....

is this the end of the moment?
i duno
jus now afternoon sleep for half hour aso dream about him
haizzz
so nice
kersian reality not tat nice...
lol
now rushing assign!!!!
wish me luck!!!
tis week faster past !

crush on you

i duno wat izit
but the more i see
the more i like you
izit a good thing
i duno
n i dun care
i can get my heart broken
it doesnt matter
coz all i know is that now i like you <3

tis week is gonna b a hectic week
rushing assign
after tis week then i will b sort of free
i hope so lol

had italian lunch....
weeee ~~~<3
it was delicious !
get to c leng chai aso...
lol
chef ppl are good looking .....lol

then balik
mum back adi aso
raining but nvm
eat eat eat again....
delicious again ! xD
i think i fatter joh ==
haizzz
dun care le
im enjoying myself
took usual afternoon nap lu

woke up
get ready for gym
mummy tis time got come
so went there
veri funny coz kena scare by mum's fren
lol
not her fault la
jus tat me n mum was taken by shock
funny~~~ xD
then reach gym lu
mum went out of changing room first....
i stil inside...
then i walk out lu when it's time
filll my water bottle
then suddenly i feel got someone behind me
it's him le !
never look straight at him la...
kekeekke ><
then go to mum standing there coz class not yet start
c him filling his water
then he walk over to his frens there
i think he kept looking over
but i dun dare look back coz mum there wei
lol
mayb it's jus perasan xD
i could hear his voice again <3
nice voice le
i think he can hear mine too coz mum n i was talking
then went in
he went in first with his frens...
i stand the area that canot c him through the mirror....
lol
but then when class start i still get to c him through mirror la...
coz moving around ma.....
i guess got eye contact gua...
i hope so....
hehe

then push up n sit up time
went to get the mat
he always walk where i walk lo :)
hehe
then 2day tis is the most surprise thing ever for me !
i's the reason y im so hapi
lol
usualy he take mat then he will go back to his place in front of the class
far away from me ma
mana tau !
he after take mat
came back
n put his mat behind me on the right ><
hahahahhahax
so hapi n awkward...
coz tis time he bhind me
as usual look at him through mirror
so handsome lo <3
for me la xD

put back mat that time not same timing like him lo
coz i got to go get mum's mat
pity....
but still!!!! xD
i veri hapi le
huhuhuhuhuhu
i dun care wat is his relationship wit the gal
i dun care whether he is taken.... or mayb jus think of me as a fling
i dun care about getting my heart broken
im jus positive of my feelings towards him :)
i hope so.....lol

love love love

making me have stupid thoughts
the heart that's thinking of you
is not a good heart to me

what do i do
i know that i cant be like this
if i say that it's a lie
will i not think about it

im reali veri foolish
i know of no one other than you
you're looking at someone else
yet you have no idea of my feelings like this
only you
i only looked at you
as i watch you walking past
im still happy
even yet you still dont know my heart
i should stop this and go
i keep on hoping
i'll keep hoping
that you will b my boy

though i tell it to go
though i tell it to stop
my heart keep going towards you
y is my love like tis
really, my heart must have done something somehow
i must have become a fool that's blind from love

yesterday
to me
i couldnt move
i was caught in your spell
will you catch me

stop it
if i come close to you
you run away from me
let go
im tired of your light plays
i dont have any strength
to the point that i hate my heart
tell it to me once geinuinely
you're not it
i cant take it anymore
i want you

<3

i never told you

i think of you today
through out the day
lol
irony izit it
but i aso saw a lot of handsome dudes today
hahahahahax
food fest day
not bad le
but veri tired lo
morning semangat la
come afternoon
sien joh
lol
but overall it's good :)
looking around =p
then one of my classmate's fren ask me whether i work at pc fair bfore wo
coz he think i veri familiar
unfortunately i dun work at pc fair
so sory
he asked the wrong question
such a pity.......hahax.....

haizzz
feel like wanna b in love le ==
but this thing oi will come naturally !
not by force
so got to wait lu....
hmmmmmm

you r my drug

i cant get you off my mind
i think about it all the time
you r driving me crazy baby

i heard his voice 2day :D
i was filling up my bottle water
then he standing there talking to his frens
quite nice lo the voice
lol
your average guy voice
speak english
veri good...
lol =p

haizzz
2day he tat gal fren not here
so get to c him more thru the mirror reflection
so mayb she mean something to him ?
coz when she here....he wont like tat de lo
he wont even choice me...
lol
haixxx
n during push up
he aso was in front of me
usually he veri far de ma.....when the gal is there
then he sit wit his back facing the stage....his front facing me.....
lol
that time i reali duno wat to do
look here or there aso not corect
sometime jus steal a peek at him
lol
no eye contact aso
charm le......

the guy standing there

well
my eyes stil goes to you
dun ask me y
i duno the answer to that
mayb i jus hav something wrong
if only i noe your status
then mayb it will make me sad coz mayb you r taken
then only i can stop this stupid act !
haizzz
how do you chase after a grown man ?
lol
i hav no desire to b the 3rd party if he is taken
tats y i dun dare look anymore
coz it jus dun feel right if u keep staring at ppl bf ==
so wrong............

he's jus so irresistable to me
2day he wore a white cap
wah~
i was like quite handsome
lol
paranoid la me -.-
siao kia
feeling like an idiot
lol
dun dare to look in the mirror for your reflection
i duno how 2 read signs even if i am given one

it's so hot !!!

help
weather is killing me !
i think earth is really heating up
or izit jus me ?
even my mum feels t
but she goin through menopause
so tats different right ?
but aiyo !
stil freaking hot !

went to gym
i love gym now
no matter who is the trainer
n wat guy i see ! =p
i dun care !
gym makes me fit
i can c the changes
i wont actually say thin n slim
but healthy n fit !
guys you lookin for skinny
well dun find me !
i wan a guy tat love me for who i m !

n i bought a cute lace skirt !
finally something lace !
hehehe! hapi :) weee~~~<3
being hapi as myself !

dangerously straight

lol
no doubt there
im straight
hahax
but actually im not talking about tat
tis shampoo i bought
it said silky straight
after use
hair aso not straight
mayb a little
but it stil goes back to normal
sway one sided
lol
dun care le
waiting for sis to come back to go cut hair !

morning went to skool
suppose to b doin work
but ended up playing
lol
geng leh
hahax
but it was fun
my frens r more obsessed over dressing up than me
help ! im goin crazy !
do i look like a their personal fashion designer?
im so not....
i only permit you to ask the question nice anot
not how 2 wear tis wear tat
abit is ok
too much is terlampau !
im not a freaking fashionista !
i like to keep my own fashioon too
i dun like ppl copying me
haizz
im scare....
but it's their life
im not in control
i noe im in control of my life...
tats it
except the love part....
i wanna close my eyes so i wont see any male in sight !
lol

woohoo~

nice day i guess~~
woke up at 11am
then makan biscuit n milo
then change to out wit chee n dei n bianca
went to curve....
the garden lifestyle cafe
walao eh
so nice ! ><
kersian my hp no battery
if not i reali would take lotx of pics !
then jalan jalan....
bought a 12.90 belt
weeee~~~~
then send bianca home
go uptown wit chee n dei
jalan jalan
then makan at starbucks !
wow!
nice xD
hahax....
then jalan jalan again
bought mag....
lol
then chee bought clothes again....
lol
geng la she
hahax...
then send them back....
weeee~~~
at curve
i saw a gym guy
well he is a man
saw him wit his wife or gf and daughther....
or mayb it's jus his someone....
thats y you see!
in gym look young n single
but actually married n taken !
mayb mine aso would b like tat....
the staring is jus a game to him i guesss
anyway staring is no crime....
no blame there...
i aso like to stare.....
dun care !
im now concentrating on my fashion......

when in rome

best movie ever
when in rome <3
i wish i coul pick up a coin from the fountain of love
which belongs to the guy of my destiny
n fall in love wit him
head over heels
or rither i dun need the coin
i jus need someone like josh duhamel in the movie
he wasnt under the spell
but he went after the gal
awwww <3

where is the guy
for me
he can b the most clumsy or stupid guy on earth
but he will b mine :)

hols for a week
but stil got 2 rush assign
so wat hols man ?
im slacking
lol
hope wont kena tembak
lol
like i care
i noe i wil finish it in the end
but jus the process
i will surely less sleep

2day went py wit yeeee
had fun la :)
karaoke n korean food
weeeee <3
my fav
at amp square.....
at che go
nice wei !
then walk walk
shopping
got my pants n sweater :)
yeah!
n saw him at gym
when u wanna avoid his glance
well you cant
like 2day i stand by the side
so no reflection of him
but still i will c him
it's a auto reaction
i think his gf/gal fren noe liao
huhuhuhu
im sry
but looking is not a crime =p
im not snatching your guy !
hope tis pass soon
when i start training
duno still can go gym anot
mayb then i wont get 2 see him
now i oni see him twice a week
by then it'll b zerooooo

kaiji :)

wow
accounts exam
sure veri low
everyone was like so lost
when lecturer went out
all curi curi ask each other
lol
haizzz
dun care le
it's over....
=p
god wll decide wat mark i wil get
i will accept anything

then lunchie
lol
chris dei chee n me <3
weeeeeee
we suka discuss stupid stuff
lol
pour out each other secrets
wakakakaka xD

then chris balik
dei busy wit assign
so left me n chee
went clinique workshop
quite boring lo
then eng class ==
lucky presentation oni lo
i not yet present yet
kekekeke
2day last day of skool
mid term break !
woohooo~~~~

so 2day after skool go 1u tengok wayang wit chee :)
kaiji ~~~~
nice show le
veri meaningful
teach u about life....

then after tat jalan jalan....
chee buy clothes lo
so goood
huhuhu
if i got bring money i aso wanna buy
so nice ><
the spring fashion i think....

huhuhu
then balik lo
then meet my sales gal from internet to colect my clothes...
not ba le
next time can continue do business wit her
ehehehehhe
then bought boks n mag
weeee :)
makan banyak lo aso 2day
huhuhuhuhu
=p

stupid gal

u think he reali like u ?
dream on
2day was like the worst day
since yesterday adi veri bad adi !
huhuhuhuhu

forget forget forget !
must go through this phrase again
how many time ah
i duno man....
haizzz

shit
jus now got think of some lyrics de
but then now forgot joh
lol
mayb my sad time will b less
hehe :)
new hope.....

baby i need you now

i wonder do i ever cross your mind
to me it happens all the time.....

2day in skool not bad ah
but memalukan lo
lol
alcohol drink drink drink
but open botttle
like a fool
lol
so sory
im memang like tis de =p

then main main
wakakaka
eat aso so hai lo....
so stupid
coz when im drunk
i get high
more semangat
do stupid stuff
lol
but headache
the worst ==

then gym
duno y
mood veri monotone
hmmmm
c him
i feel he aso veri monotone
he cut his hair ah ?
haizz
duno where tis wil lead
keep looking
keep staring
but no ending.....
i jus like you like tat
i like to like you like tat
a lot of like
hahax....
looks like he quarel wit he gals frens...
coz usually he will chat wit them de ma....
haizzz


wanna noe who u r
wanna noe what u do !
wanna noe wats ur name !
are u taken single married engaged ???
lol
wats ur age ?
tell me baby
coz i need you now
literally
<3
i know nuts about u
just nuts...
n it's like dreaming for snow in msia
i noe it wont come true
:)
anyway i jus like it like tat
i guesss

fatty cravingsss

lol
jus like the title
been having cravings
n enjoying n regreting them
good thing or bad thing?
i duno....lol
period faster come !
i wanna get u over wit !

sat morning go class
rush assign
finally past up liao
so no worries about stupid moral anymore =p

after that balik makan 5 bread n a drink
lol
then gym !
wow
nice nice....
then went movie wit mum :D
dragon toothless and date night
i love them <3
funny like bomb
weeee~~~~
then makan ireland's potato
n jap ice cream <3
my fav

after movie then balik lo
coz next day go qing ming !
woke up 4.30 am D:
so sleepy o.o
slept whole way to segamat
lol
then woke up
eat breakfast at mamak store....
nasi lemak
long time no eat
sedap nya !
then continue journey
finaly reach le
i feel veri light after prayers ^^
thank you veri much my ancestors and god....
then eat little bit rice at site aso
yum yum
then stop by station to toilet n buy ice cream n drink coz so hot !
then balik lu
slept the whole way again
lol
then reach home le
saw mum....
:)
eat food then she bought
fat n greedy
lol
then folow hergo subang parade to buy stuff
then came back
she pack
i on9
then at 1830
she go airport lu
goin australia....
huhuhuhu
wed oni come back
so now oni me at home
i cooked can mushroom n abalone
lol
sauce is mayo thousand island chili n tomato
lol
tis time ok ok le
not as nice as the 1st but stil nice ^^
ownself cook sure ownself eat la....
hehe
greedy fatty aiai~~~~~
hav to stop lo....

finaly gym back !

wow
reali lazy
makan banyak somemore
think period coming liao
if not y like tat de ?

fri no skool
stay at home
fool around
suppose to assign for 2molo
but im so lazy =p

do my thing
then gym time at 5pm
hehe
nice nice !
totaly power on
lol
then balik rumah
makan !
cravings man !
mum c me go back n fro from kitchen lol
then she went uncle house
left me alone
i went kitchen fry clam
clam from can xD
reali reali period coming
coz i seldom cook
but once i cook
it's the good stuff xD
fried clam no oil mixed wit mayo n thousand island
not bad not bad :)

now full le
cravings under control
time to get assign done
2nite no no sleep i guess :)
jus make the best outta it....
weeee~~~~