my remedy

is shopping !
jus spending some cash
no matter on wat
lol
like today
come back work tired n sick
but stil go out n enjoy
jalan jalan
go c gym clothes
mum say will buy for me later
kkekekeke
then go buy baskin robn coz 2day 31st !
awesome !
bought groceries wit mum
doin all this little things adi make my mood 100% better :)

thx mum !
thx shopping !
n all the little things
c whether i wan go sungai wang 2molo n py
coz i wan go buy stuff
hahax
duno whether stil there anot le.....
save n spend :D
n gym !!!!
now sick
so wait until monday oni gym back bah.....

need shopping !!!!!

lol i need 2 shop
if i dun shop i dun feel right
not hapi aso
lol
i noe i say tis week dun shop
but if im desperate
im gonna shop n i dun care =p

off day sick day
then gtg back to work liao
running nose n soar throat
great la

feeling fat coz skip gym 2day coz not feeling well
ah who cares la
must skip routine once in a while

so went out wit yee to pyramid!
not bad
nice nice
no buy stuff
lol
nothing 2 buy
prefer sungai wang le

need money ! haha! saving savin !
jia you!

big butt big big big waist
small breast
great la
big arm
big leg
lol

wateva !
i wanna eat !
sory i cant stop myself
blek !

influence

y he can influence me so badly?
he didnt come gym 2day ==
n seriously
my mood went down down down
his gf there wat
y he never come de?
i do body combat on tues n thurs coz of him ma?
coz 2day he not here
i aso dun feel like being there
lol
doe he hav power over my mood?
it's a yes according to tis situation

aiks
it's a bad thing
when a stranger can influence u!
coz u dont even know him !
thats the worst !

fall 4 someone u dont know

can i ?
is it real or jus a stupid childish feeling?

went gym for my 2 hours
i thought he oni come for body combat
mana tau after i run finish
goin to other machine
i saw him
at first i didnt
but then i turn then oi?
he avoided my gaze
n i look bhind him
the gal was there
his gf rite?
always together wan
aiksss
wateva

tats y 2day dun feel like looking at him
even though when i look at him n he look back
im the wan who broke the gaze first
but duno y 2day i feel he keep staring at me through mirror bfore class
coz everytime i look at him, he stare back....
n i dun dare hold the gaze ==
usually i wil but 2day jus wasnt it i guess

i feel like the gal aso like know something wei
aikssss
wateva again !

if u got a gf plz stop looking !
he like playing wei !
i can feel it....
aikssss

here's my lyricss of the day

You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, he caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
And I don't think that I'll see him again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

F B A

wat is F B A
fuck you bitches n assholesss

lol
bad day
so im like tat
anyway i dun wanna talk about it much
jus wanna say
ppl arent wat they seem like
things arent wat they seem too
dun get too excited
this is god's challenge!
i'll get over it !
6 months !
who cares !
off day go enjoy gao gao !

gym time whack gao gao!

Who's going to save you
When the stars fall from your sky
And who's going to pull you in
When the tide gets too high
Who's going to hold you
When you turn out the lights
I won't lie I wish that I had a superman tonight
i wish that superman was you

If somebody sent you
An angel to save you
What would you tell him

Who's going to fix you
The next time you break down
Stranded alone by the side of the road
It's your baggage that's dragging you down
Don't look back
Let it go

there's something about love
that breaks ur heart
tears u up
but you stil believe
that yours is out there somewhere
hopefully

secrets.....

thats the ost for sorcerer's apprentice !
which is awesome !
sang by one republic!

okay
my mood totaly better than yesterday
thx god ! i recover !
i always do !

2day suite wing again
i guess i wont b getting any tips anymore coz following tis senior
he oni keep tips to himself
but im like wateva
im here to learn
im not working
so anything lo

but follow him mmg more relax
coz i love suite wing anyway
so its ok i guess
get to curi makan too

then next week i morning again !
woohoo! can go gym le !
coz i feeling fat
sat n sun eat eat eat
omg....lol

n there's one more thing of coz...
but i dun wanna anticipate !
blek !

disorientated....

feeling disorientated today
lol
sleepy ah
come home aso tired like shit
==

it jus take some time
in the middle of the ride
everything gonna b alright !
jimmy eat world - the middle :)

hang in there gal !
who cares
everyone is taken anyway
we'll jus concerntrate on looking....
aiks....
dun think

sorcerer!!

awesome show
sorcerer's apprentice
woohoo!
nerdy guy super awesome
hahahahhax
clear my mind?
r u insane?
'hand signal'
little bit xD

2day i went undercover
lol
went out alone dress dun look like myself
argen cap, specs, show off tatoo !
hahahahahax
awesomeeeee
went to buy tix for the show for at night lo
super crowded wei
at night aso crowded like hell
at night wore my new clothes
i improvised xD
so hapi ~

anyway back to work!
next off day faster come !

Looking....

wats the definition of looking?
lol
jus randomly asking
if looking at you could mean something....
i wanna tell u everything
n know wat you're thinking
can i?
of coz not
coz looking at you can mean nothing....
something to me
but nothing to you

why did u choose 2 invade my mind 2day
y did u choose do stand in my line of sight today?
sometime u do, sometime u dont,
plz dun toy wit me....
im not the type who play play
if u're jus having fun, plz look elsewhere

2day thought gym was as no feel as yesterday
mana tau once keluar of locker room....
walk to combat class...
eyes in sight wit him ==
walking in aso walk past him n he look at me
he dun do tat wan lo
yesterday aso dun hav
never had bfore
y choose to do it now?
i dun like hot n cold

through out class aso eyes in sight many times liao
n tis time he reali stare back!
usualy he will jus act like nothing
why oh why
aiks...
duno hapi anot...
coz later sure disappoint de !

n he is getting smarter
when he c me looking at him through front mirror
but then i turn away n look at him through side mirror
he aso know how to turn n catch me looking at him through side mirror wo ==
i dun understand
dun wanna understand
i jus wanna savour the moment
coz i noe it wil change

2day he was jus standing there....didnt talk wit his gfsss....
y ah?
i duno
wateva
i dun wanna control anything

my lyrics

If I could write you a song,
And make you fall in love,
I would already have you up under my arm.
I used up all my tricks,
I hope that you like this.
But you probably won't,
You think you're cooler than me.

Oh yeah
So scared of breaking it
That you won't let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters
I won't ever send
Somehow it is cut so much
Deeper then they seem

I am in misery
There ain't no one
Who can comfort me

lol
nice songss cool lyrics

2day was ok ok
folow senior in hotel wing
he veri simple n simply de
not strict so veri good
then another senior she aso veri nice so ok ok...
hehe
break time go meet fren
laugh laugh....lol
thats the oni time im my talkative siao kia.....lol

gym was awesome !
super powerful 2day duno y
c him c other leng chai
no feel
lol
who cares ?

im hungry!
xD

dun b immature !

omg
this guy fren that i long forgotten
suddenly sms me n wan go out
then say wan b my bf
omg
amf la....
lucky i keep on tell him i busy....
lol
siao wan
i noe im single
n i would reali like to hav a bf
but im not tat desperate !
tis time i reali dun wanna fling
i wan a real thing
siao wan la these kind of ppl
nothing 2 do izit
go contribute something to the world la
rather think bf gf everyday

even though i think about love too
but im not like so immature
plz la grow up !

2day was an okay day
happier actually
duno y
gym influence again? lol
gym got mighty power on me !
:D

inception.....

wow
complicated n interesting show!
2day off day so out wit mum
go watch inception!
worth it !
nice nice !

morning went 2hours gym
semngat all come back adi :D
more energy n lively.....lol
duno y but im loving it
after tat went curve!

saw a few ppl i noe
but they didnt c me
so i didnt say hi
lol
i memang like tat
they see me aso oni i say hi la.....kekekeke

wore new dress n show off tattooo
LoL
this is the time can wear sleeveless n let hair down
at work wear cover all n tie hair....suffer le.....
hahahax....

aso bought my books, mag n mask !
weeeeee =p

no lovey dovey n counting!

go wit the flow.....

ahhhh
wateva
they wanna say wat they say la
wanna think im goody good girl....innocent....
wateva....
i had it adi....
i didnt answer any of their question.....
so it dont mean anything
they ownself ask.....ownself answer....i jus smile....=p

yesterday maintenance guy veri funny la
me n senior were watching tv in one of the room coz nothing to do
so he aso was there....
then he start commenting n the show....
LoL
all his comments so funny n sohai wan la...
he talk cantonese ma....lagi funny....
that was the hapi thing yesterday.....
others was ok ok....
i make mistake again....but i say i was jus following orders
aiks....dun wan tat happen again....next time i wil ownself chek too....
later kena blame is me....

im a bookwormie....
so mayb reali is good goody gal?
does it mean tat?
is reading a crime?
so many dun like to read novels.....
it's veri enjoyable lo....
in ur own world for a little while....
which i wanna do veri much....

blank.....

aiks
duno wat la
jus got 2 survive tis 6 months
this is god challenge to me !
who cares !
TAL can go through anything n wont give up

dun think anything stupid
treat everyone same same
anything weird jus move away
kena scold jus tahan
period day try to be happier
no ppl teman u jus b tough !

2 hours of gym is no joke !
n i done it for 2 days straight
tired like hell wei....

stil c him there of coz
surprise when saw him on monday
same thing same thing
jus look

plz dun lovey dovey in hotel
ppl r jus being frenly n nothing more !
like how i treat ppl too
it is vice versa
all the ppl i interested is either taken or fall for someone else
memang like tat
jus accept it

anti anti !!

okay okay
slow down gal
it is a admiration or a silly crush or puppy love or wateva u wanna call it
but i dun think u can like a person so fast?
10 days~!
too fast n u barely noe the guy
it wil b like college
after u get to know them better
then the lovey dovey will b gone
im sure....

anyway tis guy reali brighten my period moody day
i thought i was like dreading my work n it oni can get worst coz now is period time
i could nt reali smile at anyone....
but unexepctedly
god gave me a little present....a fren....
tis guy....my senior from kdu....
so the reason he so gud to me is coz im his junior
coz i noe one gal in work then treat her junior extra nice ! the junior is a guy lo....
so it's nothing
i got to remind myself tat....
ok continue....
so i was off to my break time
super early at 10.45 ==
so kinda down n no moood
on the way walking back to hotel wing using outside way
saw tis red car wanna drive in carpark
so i stop to let it pass
mana tau i saw him in the car then he wind down the window
when i saw him i was like suddenly so semangat
LOL i duno y but he cheered me up
we chat through the window while the guard chek his car....S.O.P.
i thought i wil b on my way n he on his way after the cheking
BUT!
he ask me whether wanna sit his car....
hahax....
i was like y not....
so i said ok and climb in....
now i reflect back....
everything happen so fast
lol
we chatted in car while he drove down to basement find parking lu....
he ask whether wan drop me at the backhouse there first anot....
but i said nvm....i teman him park car....
i oni look straight n didnt look at him lo....lol
should hav comment about his caror something ! ==
i was tongue tied....lol
then we chat chat laugh laugh
then finaly parted coz he go male locker room while i go female
aiks....so short but i appreciate it :)
it brighten my day thereafter
hehe
first time a guy reali fetch me in his car leh !
so im hapi =p

conclusion is no lovey dovey
he treat every gal aso like tis de
so i shouldnt think too much which is wat i always do!
no more plz !
stop stop
jus admire admire....that is enough

n omg.....now this situation i not hapi n takut
always when ppl i dun hav feelings for is after me
i always avoid them bcoz i duno how 2 react to them
i duno how 2 pretend that there is nothing wrong when there is
this malay guy which is near to his 30s say he like 19 yr old gals like me
at first i ignore it
but now im awkward n scare of him.....bcoz he too over.....
now im like wtf....aiks....
y la everytime aso like tat....
n today meet him few times liao....== y la god treat me like tat
i hope i wont ever need to folow him my whole 6 months
which the chances are veri slim ==
he aso say i 4get him adi ah? ==
he say i like veri scare him.....of coz la....siao wan....

just hope everything goes well
frens are gud enough for me
dun hav bf wont die de ! blek....

eclipse !!!

wow wow wow !
i love it !
the vamp show is awesome !
better director i think
n higher class effects
woohooo!
n pretty ppl
lol
wolf look yummy
vamp look delighful
lol
jasper like so cool !
edward same old same old
reserve goodie 2 shoes
jacob like bad boy
lol
emmett big goofball
bella improve a lot from last show....
i like her here :)
feels like reali bella from the book
she's so pretty adi
alice too!
alice n jasper awesome couple !

2dAY slept until 12pm
wake up
makan
read read
then gym
after gym rush to get ready
fetch mum then go py !
mum like getting on my nerve coz like so easy angry
but who cares la
talk to her like ada tension
2molo work again =(
aiksss
i need money la !
wan buy lotz of stuff !

predators....lol

yeah~~~~
off day 2molo
so 2day after work went jalan jalan at time square
but alone la
coz mum come from work jam ma.....
so bought my stuff
kekekekek
i <3 kl
duno y
i like walking in kl la....
kekkeke
then mum come fetch me but i drove back
go pyramid buy movie ticket!
watch PREDATORS
ok la....boleh tahan....got twist in the end.....
makan ireland potato.........my fav...yum yum
2molo is twilight!
woohoooo!

work 2day was ok....
folow another butler....
boring 2day coz no work....just folow the butler oni....
ask me whether i got bf
tel me whether wan consider the maintenance guy that is 21 yrs old
lol
the guy not bad la....but i didnt talk to him
he say he dont smoke....no clubbing...play sports n video game wo....lol
duno whether real anot....so funny....
there's another guy in my butler there tat is aso 21 yrs old
totaly the opposite....suka drink.....smoke....clubbing...
geng la.....so opposite....
but jus frens !
keke
no lovey dovey....
i geng leh?
wakakakkaka
i reali will appreciate every of my off day lo i tell u
kekekekekk jia you !

mixed feelings....

hoho
my sis has left adi
aiks
alone again
when she here i sometime feel irritated
when she not here i miss her dearly
aikz...
anyhow....my life must continue!

2day not bad...
work not bad....
finaly get to deliver on my own room service....
got rm20 tips
woohoo!
gym reali make me feel better
2day went gym again
saw him again
mixed feelings lo...
i duno wat i am feeling
but my heart is not reopen yet
coz there is nothing
jus looking
2molo one more day then i off day lu!
cant wait !

my heart is closed

yup
it is
im gonna close it up
seal it up
sew it up
coz nobody holds the key to it
gym guy
it's reali over
told u the day wil come
when it will stop
n it has stopped
i duno wat 2 say
there r no words
he avoiding
so i aso avoid
anyway i didnt do anything stupid like tel him how i feel
so it's okay i guess
wat u never tel wont hurt you

fren less
boy less
lol
aiks
duno le
see how it goes lo

butler

i start work adi
on 1st july
will veri no time update blog lo
for 6 months gua...
hahax
coz vri tired n lazy
unless i super rajin !
no guys aso
aiks
wont get to pak tor lo
gym guy n everything aso boh liao lo...
sienzzzz
haizzz
no love for 6 months!
or mayb forever
xD ahahahhahax
coz i gt no frens
n so boring
after sis leave then i think i oni got my mum lo
i can b a lou ku po adi
haahhahhax
destined