Thursday, September 30, 2010

lazy day

it's a fri
it's my off
it's gym
but im putting it off
coz i jus wanna wake up n laze around for awhile
2day tat is....

later go bath n go mall buy movie tix !!!

looking forward to that....
i know im still fat
but sometime jus gotta take a break
hehehehe
jus excuses......=p

accept the fact tat i was born to eat =p

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

life's like tat

yup
read the title
tats how i feel
but 1 day....i will b wat i wanna b !
i'll show them.....=p

y adam lambert is gay
lol
he look so yeng

dun judge me
i was born not to please u
but to please myself =p

Sunday, September 26, 2010

unpredictable ?

9am to 5pm shift for the whole week !
so unprepare for it
lol
i so thought was night shift
mana tau
saw schedule, check date
oi ?
realli woh ==
duno sad or hapi
jus go wit the flow
means this week get to c him
hmmmmmmmmmmmm

hope goin night gym will b ok
so long no go le....
aiksss
duno will how
plz react normally n dun anticipate much !

im jus not perfect
but im fine wit tat
dun hav much frens
dun talk much sometimes....
like to read books.....on9.....hear n find new music....gym maniac....
but tat is jus me
im anti social...
full of myself....
bad attitude sometime.....
lol
who will like me ?
i reali duno.....

Friday, September 24, 2010

fly with me

if it's you and me foreva
if it's you and me right now
so wont u fly wit me ?

hahax
it's a song
jus slept like a pig n woke up
dun like 9am to 5pm shift.....sort of
unless i got something to do
coz i oni sleep sleep sleep which is not gud

i dreamt of him
out of the sudden
lol
i duno y
it is my subconcious doin the thing
anyway i wanna c him too
but not possible if i keep working like tat.....==

he would forget me
n i would forget him....

my life sunyi keh?

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

wednesday

y wed is the title?
coz is body combat day at night
which actually get to c him
but wont b able to ==
coz working afternoon shift....

tengok dia pun sudah cukup le
but now once a week aso veri hard coz of my schedule

im jus trying wat i can
do wat i can
coz i wont giv up de
no matter wat
not oni love la....
work aso
studies aso
my future aso....
coz it is one freaking long way ~~

Monday, September 20, 2010

seriously !!!

skin not good !!!
body not goood !!!
shit!
seriously
wat happen to me
where is my fashion sense
wat happen to my control ?

shit !!!
come back to me plzzzz

half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you

I was made to believe i'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang,

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

But I can't stop loving you with half of my heart

Sunday, September 19, 2010

trying

trying to get back on track
look at body just now
omg
so so == Big....
lol
thats all i got to say
so so == Fat
lol

at least i realise it now....
then can still turn back
bfore i turn super fat then nobody wan

later cohes canot wear then i will cry ==
face aso lotz of pimple from chocolate gua
charm la....
jia you!
always up n down de
must up up up !

Saturday, September 18, 2010

fat n sick

fat fat fat
y y y
sick sick sick
y y y
aiksss
can u plz at least control ur eating !
melampau !!!
tis time reali went overboard !!

i think gym aso wont help much
lol
but i wil try
food is reali my weaknesss
aiksss

alreadi so big size le ==

Friday, September 17, 2010

do i ?

do i wanna make my own faith? Hurt better than feel nothing at all or jus dont do anything or do something? Seriously, i dont know. If i make a move, wil it make a difference? Saw him on wed. There is an attraction obviously. He kept staring, vice versa. Didnt c him close wit his gf tat day. Then there is something else. At work. But he is leaving soon so wil end up in nothing too. I dun wan a long distance relationship. He jus curi took my pic 2day coz he think it is funny. I wonder wats so funny. Lol. Stil half of my heart is occupied by gym guy. Half a year adi lo. Omg omg. Lol. Tis is my longest i guess. I oni get 2 c him once a week. Wat so special? Tel me. I aso wanna know.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

love luck

like so many times bfore
so many times i wrote in blog
when u anticipate
it turns out to be nothing
like 2day
c him
nothing aso
ahhhhhhhhh
always like tat
damn it
when r u goin to feel nothing?

n i got no love luck tis year izit?
or forever?
guys go after my frens
but not me
great la
im jealous
seriously
anyway im ok single
got my gym
got my own thing
im fine
i think i wil lose my touch in love

total 6 hours gym tis week
not bad
period somemore
n makan banyak
lol
but who cares
im single =p

Saturday, September 4, 2010

babi

y babi. Coz i always overthink n i hate tat! I wil not over think unless there is a clear signal. Oh bother. Plz stop. U c him then enough adi la. It wont last le. Nothing ever. Y? Bcoz ur luck sucks. N damn it, it reali is true. Im not lucky when it comes to love. Not even close. Far away. Like the sun. Too hot to b near. Anyway im jus enjoying current situation n wat it wil bring. Pastry n chocolate! Making me hungry. Lol.

Friday, September 3, 2010

my sanctuary

reading my fav books is my sanctuary. I lost my book tat day n i totaly felt down. I found it, i feel like myself again after reading it. Karaoke was ok. It is decided tat i dun fit in. But at least i improved my relationship wit them by a fraction by goin. Like the ass.manager treat me better after hearing i went out wit them. Then the laundry lady aso treat me better after i gav her the paper bag which was actualy mine. Ppl r jus so wat wei. Do something then can buy them over. Lol. But even though i dislike, but at least relationship improve in hotel. Cant wait 4 offday. Cant wait 2 c him. I miss him suddenly. Duno y. God help me.