disgusted!

ugh!
im so glad i miss his birthday on purpose....
he wrote on his msn there....saying tat...
BAO BEI, THX 4 UR PRESENT, NOW I CANT SHOCK OTHER GALS ANYMORE....
means he's been shocking other gals coz he was sad over his bao bei...
WTF.....go 2 hell la...
tis kind of guy ah...ai ling...u can find better wan!
i noe u can do it....u r not so weak!

i noe i hav no right 2 b angry n not suppose 2 b jealous or anything...
but hell it i am!
i noe i lost my own chance....its all my own fault....not his....

y do i love u? i wanna erase this heart? tell me how 2 do it? so i can get u out of my mind?