Y O U

u r stil on my mind
mayb tis wont last
mayb tis is oni temporary
but i noe wat m feeling now
n it's all tat matter

im gonna folow my heart
n hope tat it wil bring me 2 u
mayb im a fool 4 u
having oni dreams
but i stil hope it wil turn out 2 b something

mayb u r not over ur last relationship
mayb u have something on ur mind too
but all i wanna tgell u is tat
im thinking about u

giv me a sign....

haizzz
2day to no avail again....
got 2 wait until tues
m i too despesrate?
is tat y nothing is happening?
mayb i should not bother so much
then something wil happen?
can u plz tel me god?
answer my question?
does he even notice me or not?

i think i loved u bfore i met u~~~
cant u see?
wat u mean 2 me?
u r always on my mind

mayb im getting too pushy
mayb i should back off
scaring him off
shit! =.=

no contact =(

2day langsung apa pun tak ada lo...
haizzz =.=
jus look at him oni
dunno whether he got look at me anot leh
after class was walking bside him lo
but he on headphones
so how 2 talk 2 him leh???

tel me la
how 2 get a guy attention?
how 2 talk 2 a guy?
make fren wit him?
haizzz
tell me laaa

then i heard my fren, tat is a fren of his
say tat he jus broke up wit his gf a few months ago
aiyo
getting more complicated
now i wil b thinking is he over it?
haizzz
so many complications
then my fren aso say he rich de, computer genius, dun reali like 2 stay in korea, say korean gal not pretty....
harrrr
if korean gal aso not pretty, then i how oh.....
reali shitty wei....=.=
bad day bad day......for my love

but wit my frens
2day is fun day =)
went 2 pizza hut 4 lunch...
then chit chat play play....xD enjoyable....
thx guys
i love u guys =)
fren life veri gud
love life not so gud =.=
haizzz

still got contact....

got contact lo 2day
but not as much la....
but stil got
so im veri veri hapi joh =)

coz the kitchen n restaurant got a glass between ma....
so can c through
i always from there c him de lo ^^
n then he was like looking through it aso lo when i look over
so like say a hi ( signal type again la ) xD

hahax....
then the next part veri malu lo
coz service start adi
so i came in 2 wait 4 my plate ma...
then saw him...
he came over 2 say hi aso lo....
then my lecturer open the door...
hit my shoulder...=.=
swt man....
he aso saw
then laugh wo =.=
hahax
then he do the 'kena chop' sign....
HAHAx...

after tat then veri little joh....
hmmmm
duno y leh
but nvm lo...
at least he got help me open the door lu...
i notice he like no expression like tat de
duno wat happen...

then when i wiping my plates hoh
i was like singing the 'fallin 4 u' song xD
then curi curi try 2 look at him aso
hahax...=p

after service
me, deidre, kin lam,andrew n charmaine go cafe87 lo
my whole class there ma
wah
they reali got a lot of food lo
hahax....
dickson feed me a crispy ham stick
hahax....
then kelvin aso let me eat the bread n butter pudding....
hahax...
after tat they all clean clean lo...
mai wait 4 them

then we go buy bubble tea....
me,deidre,kelvin n chee
after tat go chee house chit chat....
veri funny lo xD
then after tat dad came joh
balik lo
quite hapi day
hahax

o ya!
saw chris n his gf!
hold hand leh xD
jealous lo! hahax
then mai tease them lo
the gf aso laughing
hahax...
so cute la ^^

colbie caillat - fallin' for you

i dono, but i think i may b fallin 4 u
dropping so quickly, mayb i should keep tis 2 myself
wait until i noe u better

im trying not 2 tel u, but i wan 2
im scared of wat you'll say
so im hiding wat im feeling
but im tired of holding tis inside my head

i've been spending all my time jus thinking about u
i duno wat 2 do, i think im fallin for u
i've been waitin all my life, n now i found you
i duno wat 2 do, i think im fallin 4 u
im fallin 4 u~~~~

2day i veri hapi
u noe y?
korean guy talked 2 me! XDXDXDXD
he was like hand signalling me
but its stil communicating right? xD

he aso talk 2 me la...but veri veri little....
about the kitchen stuff...=.=
then i aso pass him the plates....
hand touch hand XD
m i paranoid or wat? HAHAHAHAx.....

then when nearing the end....he was drinking water in kitchen
he signal again 2 me whether wan drink anot
xD
i say i wan ah....
then he jus show me then ownself drink joh =.=
swt la xD

but im so hapi
got communicate xD
i thought wont hav joh
wakakakaka =p
hope 2molo wil get better! =)

wallflower

nah
i dun wan a guy
i jus need someone 2 understand me
anybody
i wan 2 belong somewhere
anywhere

like me 4 who i m
b there by my side
let me hug u everyday
lean against ur shoulders
pat me on my head
stil sounds like a guy hoh xD
oh well
i wan one too
but its hard 2 find
all the good ones r all taken
n all those i noe doesnt even look at me twice
they all go 4 my frens
haiz
im like the wallflower
looking
seeking
but never owning

how do i get through 2 u?

love is a 2 way thing
u cant succeed in it 1 way
so if korean guy not interested
i guess i jus fail ==

do u noe wat u do 2 me?
i cant get u off my mind
u r stuck there
like glue

i cant help it
im helpless when i c u
wanna say something
but come out as another thing
i make a fool of myself in front of u =.= lagi swt

i ask him how r u
he thought i asking him how r u =.=
babi man
he must think im cacat or something....

how do u get a guy????

korean guy!

i finaly got 2 make frens wit korean guy!
his name is oh jae kang
ppl jus call him JK

he is 20 tis year oh
veri quiet
tats y i duno how 2 speak 2 him!
later he think i too forward n stay away from me or avoid me or something =.=
how how how?

mayb he got a gf adi leh?
mayb he's taken? married?
currently got a girl tat he like?
shit wei
i dun wanna spoil anything wei

u r on my mind
wanna b ur fren
but how do i make the first move?
tell me why
u so hard 2 4get
dun remind me
im not over it~~~

kidnap my heart

kidnap my heart n take me away
to a place where i've never been
it wil b jus u n me
2gether now n 4ever~~~~

it's my own compose song xD
to the guy tat i 1 day wil love 4eva n always
duno who r u
but im here 2 say tat all i need is u~~~

i wish people's status were written like a halo above their head
single? taken? married? lesbian or gay?
coz mayb u think u n tis guy has something
but no no no
he's taken
he's married
he's gay!
tats the sad part =.=

do chefs all smoke?
coz im kind of always looking at my chef lecturer xD
got 2
i noe one smokes
i duno about the other one
i hope not!
he has a baby face
so cute n chubby
i guess im suitable 2 b chefs gf coz they r all not small size!
they r in jus the right size which suits me
not thin....
big size
tall
mayb fat but not too fat
like me =)

missing something...

can u make up ur mind wat the hell do u wan????
keep changing ur mind....
u think u r the oni wan living on tis damn earth izit??
damn it la...
i dun care adi
the more i care....the more u drive me crazy!
shit u la...
u're my family but u r driving me crazy!
dun treat me like a child!
im not a child!
damn it!

im missing something
it's like there's a hole in my heart..
save me
from here
take me away

n i reali hung over guys adi i guess
im jus looking oni
not finding anything serious
except if im reali sure...
coz reali like no feel wei
where is my love feeling?
i think i lost it T.T

i used 2 b love drunk but now im hung over
i love u 4ever
4ever is over
we used 2 kiss all nite
but now it's jus a bar fight
dun call me crying
say helo 2 gudbye~~~~

n guys tat im interested r like smokers???
why why why?
i hate smokers!
such a handsome face but smoke?
wasted la....=.=

ok ok ok ok ok

tis week veri ok ok oni lo
kelvin granpa past away joh
so he not here the whole week =.=
boring wei
somemore he sms me, tell me he sick joh =.=
lagi shitty
swt wei
kitchen tat time aso half fun half not fun
coz someone keep nagging me n is damn right not the teacher =.=
make me mood not gud in kitchen
babi la....
tats y never reali choi him the whole week

went 2 gym mon to wed....
reali love body combat lu xD
the marcus mat salleh guy reali handsome de lo
HAhaHaHAHaHax....
but 2day thursday no body combat
wan go biking wan
but overslept =.=
fat lo >.<

then 2day aso ok ok oni lo.....
during pdp veri sien lo
oni ihtm6 making a lot of noise
we all gao quiet de
now i finaly noe tat there's 2 koreans in ihtm6
hahax....
wil try 2 talk if im brave enough
hahax....
reali monotone week man =.=
cant get any exciting meh...sienzzzz

i havent found wat i've been looking for...

nope
havent found wat im looking for
either hav i found wat im feeling for
nobody's crossing the frenship line so far
nothing.....a big zeroooo

coz sometimes even frens aren't there for u
so how can u expect more?
sometime i feel tat i dun belong
so its kinda hard....

i wonder whether 1 day i'll feel like i belong somewhere out there....
feeling empty inside
like there's no purpose
but i noe i got a purpose in life
b a better person
tats the most vital
2nd is treat other ppl n famili n frens wit loving care
repair my attitude
get fitter....firmer....so ppl wont call u fat or big size....
im tired of tat alreadi...

try 2 take a picture of love
didnt think i wan it tat much
try 2 fill tis new frame
but it's empty~~~
mayb we're trying.....we're trying too hard...
mayb we're torn apart
mayb the timing is beating our heart
it's empty~~~

i wan 2 b the gal tat makes u stay
the one tat makes u turn ur head
put a smile on ur face
n hear ur laughther everyday
n i'll noe tat i can count on u no matter wat
when im in sorrow u'll always b there...
but it's hard 2 find
n mayb u dun even exist...
only in my dreams

but i'll stil try my best
2 find u
even if i dun succeed
i think i wil b content
tat at least i've been looking for u

if i dun say tis now
i wil surely break
as im leaving the one i wan 2 take
4get the urgency
but hurry up n wait
my heart has started 2 separate~~~

always the one tat u wan
is not the one tat u wil hav
should i giv up?
or keep dreaming?
keep waiting?
or jus move on?

when i c couples
im jealous >.<
y do i feel like tat
i dun wanna feel tis emptiness
my mind wants a bf
but my heart cant find one =.=
r the odds against me or something?
im tired adi.....

sunday....

went out wit my guy fren kok wei 2day
gao boring wan wei
i swear tat i never ever wan 2 go out wit him again....
waste my time! =.=

went 2 c the movie land of the lost wit him....
aso a stupid movie wei....
waste my time again!

but then got 2 buy comic n got my kitchen stuff....
tat wan i was satisfied lo...
but others...no way!
then after he balik
i hang out at speedy.....chat wit my fren tat work there while wait 4 my sis come n teman me....
finaly she reach....
we went jalan jalan lo....
got her stuff....
the nwent 4ever21......got my dress 4 my grandpa dinner....
my sis got a new bag
didnt c any nice shoe so next time lu
for dinner went 2 pasta zanmai!
love tat shop wei
gao delicious wan xD
after tat dessert go buy japanese ice cream.....
one of a kind n melts in my mouth...
woohooo~~~
jalan jalan somemore then oni balik lo....
balik adi.....
now here....
so tats all 4 2day
nothing much
wait 4 2molo!

hang over.....

2day slept until noon.....
HAHAx....
morning wan go gym de lo
but too lazy
KaKAx....
then teman sis go carrefour beli barang again n go subang parade collect her laptop
but laptop not ready yet....so haiz =.=

then balik rumah
pergi pandu kereta xD
normal normal lo.....

then balik again....
bantu kak buat cupcake utk kawannya!
buat sambil minum arak! xD
sampai mabuk....kepala sakit.....tidur pulak
sampai sekarang masih sakit oi =.=
haiz....
hung over man.....

n i finaly appreciate the fact tat im single
mayb my mind is wants a bf.....but my heart is not ready 4 one
mayb its like tat gua
coz like reali no special feeling eh
duno y
looking but not finding anything
jus leave it 2 time n faith lo =)