o ya....another thing...

kelvin so gud gave me his assign to read....
n i realise that there are a lot of thing tat i dunno about him...
since he primary...he has done a lot of thing....
he is not a guy who like 2 study
he like 2 free n have his own way.....and many more things about him....
very lazy 2 state here....hehe
at least in the future....
when he leaves....i have something 2 remember him by...his assign xD
sounds stupid
but i reali will appreciate it :)

tats y there's a lot of thing tat i duno about him....
so do i have the right 2 like him? =/
it makes my liking of him kinda stupid
but well, love is stupid
im so sory, my like is jus veri simple.
haiz....
n it will never b strong enough.....i think......

i dreamt about you again.....

dreamt about you again
during my afternoon nap =.='''
y everytime aso is afternoon nap ah....

tis time it was in the gym =.='''
lagi swt
i think i go gym too much.....tats y i end up dreaming about it....

my whole family was there except my bro
so there was my mum, sis, me n my dad.....
we were getting ready for the body combat class

then suddenly eh?????
i saw him walking into the class wit all the trainers
n as usual....my impulse took over me.....coz i was like so shock n hapi 2 c him....
so i walk over to him...
ask him y is he here d.....
he say he noe martial arts....tat he follow his fren oh....
then he showed me some move of body combat...
i told him im not so gud in it.....
then i said i c him later n walk off.....
he also look hapi 2 c me ^^ i think....it's a dream la....

i was like a love sick fool after seeing him
i practically skip n jump back to my family xD
then the class started.....n tat was all....

sounds really simple rite? compared to the first wan
but im hapi.....:)

2day was deadline of assign
so as usual yesterday nite rush like hell like tat
3 am oni sleep =___=

then in the morning
tis kelvin call me
ask me go fetch him.....=.='''
mai fetch him lo
he say he didnt sleep whole nite wo.....geng la him
then 2gether walk to french n german class.....
nearly everybody was sitting outside there....chat chat lo
after a while lecturer came....so i went in adi....

after class meet up wit chris, deidre
went to comp lab saw kin, eli n kelvin
in the end went makan wit kin. deidre n chris
chit chat lo
chee chee at hime rushing assign

after tat went 2 visit her....me n deidre...
she ask me help her buat pulak =.=
so sory lo
i veri lazy help her do joh....

after tat went back 2 skool wit deidre first....n bought bubble tea ^^

walk in to class....he not there yet
saw kelvin n wei han
they 2 pakat n tease me again
say i fat =.=
i noe i fat la ok ???? huh! =p
then tis kelvin like something wrong ah?
keep wan me take the disc n giv jk...
i was like....u ownself giv la =.=
i noe i like him...but tis kind of thing u ownself giv la....
coz does not concern me aso....
at the end somemore scold me ask me take the disc =.=
i mai take lo....
then jk came
he went 2 find kelvin for disc
kelvin say at my here
i mai jus giv it to him lo
nothing happen aso =.= duno wat 2 say aso
coz veri weird la....
suppose is kelvin giv d ma....y suddenly is me leh?
veri weird la =.=
i noe mayb kelvin is helping me....but still jk will think is weird d ma....
haizz.z...duno la....
thne class class as usual.....
kena teacher cakaap blouse too low...
dun care la....i thought she didnt come ma....anything la...

he reali walk like a model la....xD
there's a certain style n air around him tat i cant describe n i like it :)
wei han somemore say whether he gay =.=
i duno la whether he gay anot....but i tembak wei han 4 saying tat xD

after my turn.....i thought he balik adi ma
coz the whole ihtm6 went out adi ma
then eh??? saw him when i wanted to walk out of class
he like saw me then walk out =.=
im so scary izit? tat u c me wan 2 run? =.= dun care....

it's still [ you ]
i really really really like you
my eyes oni fall for you
damn it....

another song while thinking of him....

我到底是谁
在你心中占有怎样的地位

你不说清楚
你让我们的爱坠在七里屋

爱 很讨厌
总是互近又互远的让人追
追半天
你连抱歉
一句抱歉也不给

我向前走
低着头
眼泪不停向后流
一直走 不回头
希望你会找到我
但是始终不如愿
希望都落空
我仍相信
其实你懂我

我发誓千篇
我这一走你就无法挽回
虽然心会痛
总比受惊委屈还要更好过

我 等了等
脑海始终浮现你对我的好
好半天
你连baby
一句安慰也不给

我向前走
低着头
眼泪不停向后流
一直走 不回头
希望你会找到我
但是始终不如愿
希望都落空
我仍相信
其实你爱我

一前 一后
你跟在我的背后沉默

前前 后后
希望你握住我的手

我向前走
抬起头
擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走
不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百篇
希望都实现
我不想走
不放心不懂

我向前走
抬起头
擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走
不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百篇
希望都实现
我仍相信
其实你懂我

emo day

duno y im emo-ing
duno
wish i had an answer 2 it too
but i dont =/

in the morning
walk into class
chee hui wave at me
so sat bside her
then the emo just started
they talk talk talk
but i was like so quiet
duno y =.=
wats up wit me 2day !

then mai sit there n hear them talk lo
then my eyes will automatically search 4 him on the other side of class
saw him lo....but still emo....y ah???
then through out talking wit my frens......sometimes will just look over at him
he dont c me....Haizzzz
but whenever i noe he's goin 2 turn his head 2 look somewhere else
i aso turn my head from him
scare he notice...heehee....
sounds veri sad 4 me....but wat can i do?
when u like someone first.....u always will suffer first d....

my frens aso notice i veri quiet 2day
but i told them i aso duno...
mayb 2day not my day bah....
eli aso say y i so emo
she aso say 2day i keep looking at him
i told her....now stil got chance....better take the chance 2 look at him more xD
kin lam tease me say i looking at my bf....
if reali my bf then gud lo >.< except tat is so not true...T.T

next class
bang my way into the room
4 fun i guess
duno got so many ppl inside adi....paiseh...sory...hAHax...

then went 2 find my frens lo....
aso talk quite little oni....
keep looking at him across the class
when teacher start teaching aso same =.=
wats up wit me 2day la
emo until gao gao
emo tat time keep thinking of him....loooking at him
tis is reali reali bad 4 me.....
n the stupid idiot can sleep in class wan wo
at first i look tat time he still ok d
then after a few time
he there tidur- ing
i was like =.='''''
so relax hah......

after tat
wait 4 service briefing
wait until gao long
mood adi not gud
wanna fast fast go home oni
sit there n chat wit deidre n charmaine lo
deidre talk about the guy she like
i talk about him
haizzzz
talk more....like lagi sad =.=

finaly time 4 briefing
he aso in kitchen
get 2 c him lu.....
tats all 4 2day.....
hope 2molo wil get better plz!
i hate emo!
let me think about lotz of thing tat dun wanna think....

暗恋

still lonely
still lonely

作晚又再见到你
你还是那么美丽
我紧张到话都不会说
就傻傻看着你

渴望永远这距离
就是和你在一起
情还没发现着一切只是我的梦境

告诉自己要冷静
却又无法不想你
我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己

是你对我有戒心
还是我没有自信
可是谁也不能住址我
我要暗恋你

so lonely

so here i am
standing all alone
在某个街头
有个我在这里只为你等候

here i am
waiting just for you
开放我所有
希望你能了解
你能够接受

so lonely

凝望渴望再见你
虽然只是在梦里
美丽的甜蜜已胜过了一辈子没有你

就算没快乐结局
就算从此失了心
我要付出我所有的心
只要能感动你
我愿意
我愿意

so here i am
standing all alone
在某个街头
有个我在这里只为你等候

here i am
waiting just for you
开放我所有
我要为你怎么做你才接受我
我喜欢你
我要你
我爱你

故事就说到这里
就算你们再好奇
我想说的都已说完了
其余是秘密

在那某一个街头
会流传某个宣语
那是我在轻轻唱着歌
我多爱你

Hospitality Prom 09

Prom was ok n great!
drank beer, makan makan n took pix!
but i look like crap in most pix
coz firstly face red red coz alcohol
secondly face fat, body fat =.=
haizzz
dun care la
still will upload pix
hehehehe

during prom
duno y
i was thinking of him
missing him =/
why ah?
took pix wit korean ppl
i aso ok ok oni....like normal....
told kelvin tat the one i wanna take pix wit the most is him
haizzzz

then 2day went out again....
coz kena mum marah
i mood not gud
so wan enjoy enjoy....
went chili's makan 4 group assign...
then meet kin lam n deidre at karaoke
but in the end i went movie wit kelvin n dickson
after movie oni go find deidre n kin
overall 2day quite nice ^^
love my frens <3
love u too :)

damn boy....

damn boy
u stole my heart
n u're making me dizzy n confuse
mayb u jus wanna b frens
but everything u do makes me skip a beat
my gaze will automatically follow u
just so u noe
it's not in my control

monday
u locked me out of the classroom xD
didnt noe u was so strong
coz u r like smaller size than me
tried pushing the door against u
shocked me a little when u won
u made me laugh n smile :)
im surprise but i like it when u kacao me....
u let all my frens go in but u blocked me....
at least i noe im somewhere in ur head....to a level....
at the end u open it....n i hit u xD

tuesday
u service
i kitchen in the afternoon
sat in front of ur restaurant wit my frens
c u get ready 4 service
u cut ur hair....it's reali short....but u r still u :)
first time
u came out....saw my drink in front of me
u took a sip....
but i actually wanted 2 tell u....tat drink wasn't mine xD
but didnt hav the heart 2 tell
coz im hapi tat u thought it was my drink n drank it :)

second time
this wan reali nothing lo
u jus came out n ask me how 2 make tartar sauce =___=
veri veri stupid
i said i duno
u somemore wanna hit me coz i duno =.=
u ownself aso duno la =p

P.S. no matter wat, i still like u....

no matter who u're thinking about....

if u could c me now

nah
im getting over it...
2day went sungai wang wit deidre n chee chee ^^
veri hapi...
im totaly a kl gal la....
love kl
love sungai wang :)

mayb i jus like the country
everything about the country...
coz anything about korea aso i sure like d
so mayb it's like tat...
dun think so much....

there's a new shop from korea which open at py
wanna buy something from there lo ^^
i sure willl buy anything korean d lo =p

mayb i like u
mayb i dont
but i noe
i sure can live without u
it's jus a matter of time

it's always like tat.....

为什么注意力总是在你身上 为什么在人群中也能找到你 有时希望我想的人不是你 因为你根本不在意
那天，我约你出去
不是因为我没朋友陪
我是真的想和你出去的
但是你应该没那么想吧
你请我看戏，吃东西，只是为了补偿我的手链而已吧?
我真蠢
在那儿白开心了一场

为什么会喜欢上像你这个呆子?
我脑筋是不是有问题啊

我喜欢你
不管这份感觉会久或短
我只在意现在

我知道我和你没有未来
但我还是会选择你
至少有喜欢过你
遇见你

this is my wish
can u hear my heartbeat?
it's beating for u
when i c u
it's jus different
when will i get over tis?

im not goin through the motions, waiting & hoping...

sometime i stil will think
stil will look
but i think i will oni b until tat level
cant go any further than tis
coz u're giving me no sign, no interest

sitting down not even looking at me
kinda invisible, but u dun c my way
so mayb im letting u down ~

The Friday Night Boys - You Do, You Don't

break

this is the official break
i canot tahan adi
no way
i wont waste time on a wrong person
yes im down n sad
but i wont waste time grieving either
next next next!

lazy 2 like ppl or zhui ppl adi
lazy 2 imagine tat there's a guy tat like me out there
simple imagine, simply get hurt =.=
veri stupid
im single
im free
n i can do wat i wan!

i duno how

sometime we think too much
u thought there was something
but actually it is nothing
tats the worst truth anyone can giv u

i duno wat 2 do wit u anymore
suddenly it's so hard
suddenly it's so tiring
i guess im jus not brave enough

it's hard being consistent.....
dun wanna giv up but no point hanging in there....