sometimes u wonder y izit like tat....

when u try 2 avoid someone
unfortunately u always cant do a gud job
coz god will always play wit u
by putting tat person near u or in front of u
darn it
duno wan hapi or sad

yesterday german exam....
to me it was ok....totaly can write....
when u dun wanna look at him...
ur eyes will always happen 2 swept past him....
a lot of times somemore! =.=
reach the hall tat time...saw him =.=
sit down tat time....thought he will sit far far away...
noooo.....he sat 2 spaces from me =.=
then after exam....ok la....he came n find his fren ma....his fren bside me ma...
tat wan can accept la...
but the thing is....i still c him! stil no reaction.....still so dungu...
cant u get over it adi???

the 2day....housekeeping...
i was late coz jam
when reach hall....everybody in adi....
goin up the stairs....lift my head then first thing is saw him.....=.=
i thought he went in adi aso...but no he still outside...
n i can fantasize tat he is waiting 4 me 2 come....how stupid can u get?
if tis continue.....i realy will simply think again!
if there is no hope....plz dun let me simply think!

then coz i realy need 2 pee....run 4 toilet...lol
came out....didnt c him or anybody adi...so i aso went in....
went in saw my frens....walk towards them lo....
thought can sit wit them...but no....i got 2 sit in front =.=
so sad lo....
but then?? saw him walking in front of me aso =.=! god reali playing wit me!
he aso goin 2 sit in front =.=
i reali dun wan but no choice
lucky got 1 of his fren between me n him....
if not i reali will sit right bhind him
exam tat time looked at his back =___= stupid stupid u...

yesterday i left earlier than him
2day he left earlier than me
n i think he straight balik adi coz i didnt c him afterwards....
so wateva la...
went makan wit frens....
eli got korean bf! so jealous n hapi 4 her >.<
they reali make a great couple n they look good 2gether :)

pretty odd sometimes....haiz....stop playing adi can anot....

damn right! xD

2day went curve wit mum
saw ninja again....
omg.....still so full of sexyness!
i fall in love again wit rain bi!
totally the best of 2009! :)

then 2day bought new mascara, lipstick n a choker necklace!
hee hee~~
so hapi ^^

then when having some snacks at a western cafe wit my mum
saw ihtm8 korean guy! so lucky wei! xD
i hope he saw me too
kakax....except i noe tat chance is slim
but who cares???
i saw him! tats the most important.....lol...

then do manicure n pedicure.....heehee...
saw orphan at the shop while doin nails....
finaly c joh....not bad wei the show....nice~

after nails went mcd grab late supper.....
so fun 2day wit mum ^^ love ya~~~

my love.....

2day went c movie wit deidre, chee hui n her bro!
a lot of ppl le!
long queue early in the morning!
terlampau!
but finaly bought the tix for movie
so hapi :)

met my mum's fren's son
younger than me wan la
no biggie....lol
saw a lot of leng chai xD
my entertainment =p

ninja rain was the bomb!
totally sexiness~
so yeng man!

after 1st movie
jalan eat honeymoon
my fav :)
bought kelvin present too
hope he like it....hehe

4pm....new moon!
i can say graphics totaly better than twilight!
rob n taylor n kristen look divine!
everyone look great!
story line similar 2 book
i love it....not bad....satisfy :)

a christmas carol....

went c movie wit dic, kel, kin n eli
first time go wit tis kind of group
not bad le....
after movie then jalan jalan wit them....
coz eli wan shop for her stuff....
i notice i cant shop wit them....hehe
not use yet bah....

i bought 3 rings for rm10 ^^
i really love rings
coz they keep goin round round n round
it aint goin 2 stop :)

after tat go honeymoon
eli never been here bfore
so we took photo....
so fun lu
keekee ^^
then balik....
overall not bad...

then 2day at home lo
coz 2molo goin out again! heehee ~
2day gym gym gym
2moro wear nice nice.....
money reali not enough lo!
hope to get my allowance earlier....
get more ang pao next year!
being college kid reali aiyo! XD

i think truth caught up wit me....

i feel nothing.....
miss nothing....
see nothing....
jus having fun wit my buddies
which makes it all the better.....

guess im finaly getting over it
accepting tat i cant force something tat is impossible

went pd wit mum tis weekend....bore like helll......my godddd
finaly back....but at least got a lot of my fav food.....free from mum fren....
tat was the best of all....hehe....

i stil love swimming....it's in my blood :)
now jus hanging around...waiting 4 holiday....taiwan trip....
hope something good will happen !

love.....

Love is a legend, love is a story.
Love is a feeling, an experience, and a memory.
It’s something I can’t see,
It’s something just for two.
Yet I feel so special,
When I’m with you.
Through storm and fire,
I feel the strong desire.
Down cliffs and rivers,
So we can be together,
Up mountains and hills,
Just me and you forever.”

something nice.....

Love; It can make you smile for the rest of your life, but it can also make you cry for the rest of your life.

Yet why are we always taking the risk, and even plunge further into the river of love when we know we are going to drown in sorrow?

Maybe that’s the power of love: I will be contented, even with two hours of tears alone, just for that one second of kiss with you.

When you fall in love, you get controlled by your emotions: You will do the silliest and stupidest thing. You follow what your emotions tell you to do.

And your emotions are controlled by the person you love deeply. Your lover’s emotions are controlled by you.

Basically, when you are in love, you only laugh because he laughs, or you only cry because she cries.

Emotions are no longer controlled by humans, but by the love shared.

The power of love: So strong that you wonder hopelessly what had happened to you.

you must try to create fate. Come on, fate don’t just fall from the sky!

this heart.....

this heart that is thinking of you
is not a good heart for me
it's a bad heart
making me have thoughts about you

if u dun like me
can u ignore plz?
stop looking at me from far away....
like how i look at u from far away....
i dun wan to keep thinking about things that wont happen....

when will i get over tis stupid song?

he oni will laugh wit my frens
but not wit me T.T
how sad n pathetic can u get????

im positive....im crazy....

i done it again
and im hurt yet again
who can i blame
i can only blame myself

i really hope i can forget this
plz...

movie wit him n kelvin n dickson.....
ok ok....
same like the last outing...
nothing 2 say
oni i ask he answer
thats it....
nothing special...so no need long long la hah....

thx kelvin dickson
i noe u guys helping me
but it didnt work out

thx deidre for hearing my thoughts :)

plz help me forget him!

took my heart to the limit
i hope tis is where i stay
stop fantazing the impossible plz.....
dun go any further than tis....

again....i think im crazy....

im goin out wit him again
but with kelvin and dickson aso
i suggest it to kelvin d
kelvin say ok
i msg him...never reply
kelvin msg him le....he reply....babi la...
he agree to go la...
but suddenly i duno whether i wan sad or hapi....haizzz

sort of got a bad feeling about 2moro...
hope everything will b ok....
i dun ask for much
get 2 c him 2molo asi veri nice liao...
thank you god....

sing k wit classmate!

2day decided go sing k wit the other gang in my class d.....
since they ask me out
i not very close wit them d
but 2day aso nothing 2 do...so go lo
not bad le ^^

eat 2 plate n 1 bowl of food =.=
geng lo....sing n eat....
anyway i plan 2day eat gao gao joh d lo....

after sing k jalan jalan wit they all lo...
then later all split into different group.....
li mei n yen
kin lam n lee ping
elvin, charmaine folow me balik oh....i drop them at skoool....
in the car wit them very funny lu....haHax...
then drop them liao....then i balik
balik ate 3 boxes of chocolate biscuit....LOL
dun wan keep ma
if keep longer....lagi tempting...
so ate the whole thing lo....

so 2day im glad i went out wit them....nice ^^

suddenly i realise he is not tat important anymore....
i can live wit it jus like tat....fighting!

time traveler's wife....>.<

this show was the best
it reali touches my heart
n tears in my eyes
this potrays that when it is reali true love, it never dies

this guy is a time traveler, he does not wan 2 b one....it's his faith....he cant control it....
he keeps goin back into the past or the future....
he can c his wife at any age.....n his daugther too....his daugther aso has the same thing as him....

when he disappears, his wife always got 2 wait for him....
the way she waits reali is 'wowwww'
n he told her sometime he dun wanna tell her when he will come back coz he does not wan her 2 wait....
i was like >.< i love it....

but in the end he dies....
tats the sad part....i hate tat....so sad....
after he dies.....his young self stil will travel....
n sometimes his wife stil get 2 c him....
but only a while....

totally worth seeing :)

y it's still him

what can i do
i noe tat i cant b like tis
if i say it's a lie, a lie
i cant even look at u
i cant think

if u'll jus say one word
i have no other wish

anyway i think he has someone tat he likes....
from wat i c on fb....haizzz
y do u wanna grieve over tis one guy? damn it....

he's sick

tats wat he wrote on his fb
so i hope he will get well soon
i noe im suppose 2 b over him
but sometimes my heart has a mind of its own
n it wanders off to him

<3

normal monday....

arrive at skool
chat wit frens......fool around...
saw him.....nothing.....
lecturer came....start class....
i was so sleepy.....

break time.....
then continue....i stil c him but nothing
tis kelvin ask me 2 share a mcd meal wit him =.=
i pay rm5, he pay rm10 coz i oni wan the ice cream....c how la =p

then kelvin aso told me tat a guy from ihtm6 ask for me during the skool race for cancer awareness....=.= coz i never go
quite hapi the guy ask 4 me but he 4got my name....
he jus say the girl tat always teman kelvin eat at ikea =.=
kelvin was laughing like mad....tembak u la =.=
at least he got ask about me....veri hapi d :)
then kelvin say my image gone joh....coz ppl think i go ikea oni eat oni....
i memang go ikea oni eat wan la...who cares =p

AA meeting...joke around somemore....
kena teacher cakap...so what....=p

then do the ptptn loan thing
ma hai tiu wan lo.....make me so not gud mood...miss mr.don somemore...
cant c him >.< haiz...
but saw a lot of leng chait during ptptn....not bad....lol....

when mr.don finish the class....oni i went in....saw his back oni....=.= lol
didnt c him when he went home....haiz...miss it...
was busy chating wit frens....
then saw the ihtm6 guy.....call me ikea d....=.=....now c him aso weird....kelvin fault la xD

then kin lam aso ask me whether i like a senior coz i took photo wit him during prom....i wan like huh??? i frenly wit him coz i c him so quiet ma....reali no meaning d lo....although i admit he's not bad....not handsome but stil nice....
but if ppl no meaning towards me....it's nice 2 b frens :)

n god is like trying 2 fool wit me again
housekeeping i same day wit him lo =.=!
different group but same day
faith's totallly playing wit me
he last group, i aso last group....
duno whether same time anot =.=
lucky in tis group got chee n kelvin n eli teman...hehehehe...no need wory
but when kelvin noe we same day wit him.....
he keep teasing me...saying his name all over again =p
i admit i still bother about him but wat can i do...there's nothing else....to do...

boring friday....

woke up
ate peanut butter.....lol
n other stuff la....mum's cooking...biscuit....
then read my historic romance book...
then tidur on downstairs couch =.=

woke up
went up 2 room
play comp....

went gym lo in the evening....
mood bcame bad when mum out of the blue scold me
something wrong wit her =.=

after gym
went alone 2 mph 2 look at the books
c through magazines n all tat...
robert pattinson is so dreamy :)

then went home....alone lo....sien...c tv....makan...
mum came back joh
lazy 2 bother about her....jus nod at everything she said....

c korean tv lo...
last episode of the drama
it ended well :) i love it...
mum gave me money, make me hapi...lol
m i money minded or wat.....hahax...
dun care.....=p

the smile on my face....:)

im totaly happier when i let u off my shoulders
it's like im free
n im loving it :)

in the morning....
take lift go 4th floor for german...
met tis 3 ihtm6 guys....
all aso my type....
in the lift oni me n them....
i duno whether i perasan or wat
but sometimes each of them look at me in a way
duno whether gud or bad
huh.....dun care...cant read their minds

then german lo....
then finaly over.....
then got 2 wait 4 chris 2 gt my assign.....
wait wit chee hui....
then saw ihtm8....aso got a lot of guys my type xD
so hapi looking at guys...keke...=p
got others aso....chef wan n other hotel d....heeeeheee....
im back 2 my old self....

saw him lo....he jus walk past.....i didnt feel anything....
jus like seeing a guy my type walk past....
sit there....wit chee hui...n watch guys walk past.....lol....

then there's the senior chef....he's like a lecturer i think
he is so handsomeeee
saw him 2day....
mayb i perasan again....saw him looking outside at me....coz im was sitting outside his class....mayb he was jus looking around
but im sure he saw me...HaHAx....super handsome....super talented....

finaly chris came...we discuss all the stuff...
then me n chee hui say bb 2 him then we go find deidre they all....

kelvin dun wan join us....
so oni me, kin, chee n deidre
kin wan cheong k wit my other classmate but i dun wan....
so in the end i say go py skating
but go there eat mcd then come back adi coz chee hui not feeling well
drop kin back at comp lab
but me n deidre go 1u watch movie n buy mum's present ^^
veri hapi bought mum present adi....
talk heart 2 heart wit deidre....it was good :)
twe walk tis scary film but it was funny in the end...
so at least i was not tat scare.....
heeheee....

back home
greet my mum :)
everything 2day was 'shoen'.....

the last time....

i loved u
i liked u
i went out wit u
sometmes u will smile at me
sometimes u will play wit me
sometimes our eyes will meet
tats the best thing happening between u n me

thx for goin out wit me
even just for a reason
im hapi :)

im glad im met u
i never regretted anything
becoz this time i noe i tried....:)

getting better.....

u didnt bother about me
i kept looking at u
but who cares?

it's only a matter of time
like the climate
u duno wat weather u're get
love happens
but when n how
i duno
dun even ask me
im not even sure about myself

i mean getting better
mean line getting better
not him

2day went c movie wit chee n deidre.....
another gerard butler movie
my fav :)

n i totaly love kelvin
as a fren :)
best joker i hav ever seen
cheer me up :)
n deidre n chee hui too
i love u guys....

si beh kia line!!!!

argh!!!!!
line is like down in the pits low
f***ing low!
n i'm having period somemore!
tis reali could not get any better =.=
pissing me off!

i duno how 2 start tis week la
feeling fat
feeling down
damn it la...

watever goes around
comes around
wat do u wan me 2 do?
come on la!
im not scare
giv it 2 me!
dun reali care.....