out of place

out of place, out of mind. I dun wanna b butler. I wanna b something else. But the job at marriot. Aiks. No hope lo. Damn it. 2day merdeka. But no off. Working. Folowing senior. Fren ask me go karaoke after work. Duno wil b ok anot coz i dun blend in. Jus try my luck lo. At least im making an effort!

daydreaming

wats my daydream
you
wat im thinking
you
let me show you

i was thinking of a silent date wit you
jus holding hands walking around anywhere quietly
feeling your hand in mine

then we will take a rest at any sitting area
n i hug you n put my chin on your shoulder
feeling your body warm against mine
just one day
just one time
just one date

how long

how long will it last
would it even last

it's been 6 months
n counting i guess
since i cant stop goin to gym n stop goin body combat class
coz im so tempted to see him

sooner or later
it may end
the answer will b obvious
to me
he is just a dream
cant touch
cant hold

if you are the one

Im not over
Im not over you just yet
Cannot hide it
You're not that easy to forget
Im not over

What if?
What if im the one for you?
And you're the one for me?
What If...

If you are the one
then us meeting here is fate

This is the first I've seen your face
but there's a chance we are soul mates
I know that this might sounds crazy,
Cause you don't know my name

Don't know what tomorrow brings
but I'm still hoping
that you are the one for me
Oh and what if I had you and, what if you had me and
baby what's the reason we can't fall in love?

the truth

u wanna know the truth?
the damn truth is
im still into him?
aiks
why
i duno
oni god knows
even i duno wat im feeling
something wrong
he is a stranger
but y he mean so much

i better find your loving
i better find your heart
i wanna b forgotten
but it's so hard
the day that i was stuck on you
im reali stuck
no other guy can compare 2 you
wats so special about u

2day his gal was aso there
but he still stare
all he do is stare
me ah i avoid
lol
i look back sometime
but nothing is gonna happen aso

he must b old
he must b unavailable
so y r u stil in the same spot ?
cant move on?

erase me

cant get u out of the sunlight
cant get u out of the rain

i saw him yesterday
kept staring at me since he was alone
u c la
when his gal is there
it is like im invinsible
so plz dun kacao me if u r taken !
god reali playing wit me
i said wanna 4get
then saw him ==
great la
thx a lot
in love wit a stranger
damn it
aint liking it

I keep on running, keep on running
And nothing works
I can't get away from you
No, I keep on ducking keep on ducking and nothing helps
I can't stop missing you

why

why get so uptight when u know ppl already got gf or married or wateva? Y so emo? Y ? U dun even know them enough 2 like them. But everything about them affects ur mood. Damn it. I wanna go home rite now but cant. Feel so sucky. Ma de. Ni ma de. Lol. Sory i curse. But tis is where i can write anything at all! Loner ppl mmg like tat de. We need somewhere to frut about. Mine is here or writing on any paper i can find n tear it up if im outside. So bore.

no way

it's not highway. It's my way. I dun care wat ppl think. Tis is me. I cant get along wit ppl at work. So wat. I tried. Like eating wit them 2day but i jus dun get their jokes. So sory la. Paksa tak bagus. Force no happiness. Lol. I jus cant pretend 2 b something tat im not. It's hard i know. But no way is easier. It is a phase. My life is a moo moo. Lol. Somebody 2 love? Jus wait. Patiently. Which everyone is doin the same.

single for life?

maybe. Possibility quite high. Hahax. How ah. Hope to find bf at here or anywhere tat matters pun tak ada joh. Aiks. Lol. Im not desperate. Jus sad. All possible chances all tak dah. Coz all taken.the one tat im interested la. Sien dao wo. But who cares. There r many single n lone ppl in the world. We stil rock it! Jus dun think about it. Ignore. Entertain urself. Me myself n i.

the game

bring it on
u wanna play wit me
im ready
giv it ur best shot

still i dun feel right in my work place
no frens
im a loner
memang
typical
my life is kinda boring
i admit
but im ok tis way
dun judge me

n i aso talk better with the bangla bcoz they r simpler
lol
but i dun wanna get close wit them la of coz
i jus talk to them randomly

now oni money makes me hapi
lol
spending money
receiving money
earning cash
the net
my mags
my books
dress nice
buy nice stuff
yup thats about it
no guys
no love

utterly over

i guess im too busy to feel anything for him
go gym
dont even wanna look at him
i ownself conclude tat he has a gf
n i decide to end it once n for all
not like anything is gonna happen

i continue look
nothing happen
dont look
also nothing happen
so y torture myself?

it's all about me
lol

6 months faster over !
busy like hell!

friday 13th

super long time no write blog le↲once write then bad luck come↲actualy ok wan lo the whole period i no write blog↲i was jus tired↲now my jo
b is take care of care floor↲so far ok de but today i cried↲kena marah by stupid room att↲he think he is all tat izit? Then take a higher position la. Siao kia. Already gay adi character somemore like shit. Puasa big deal ah. I cry does not mean i m weak. Im jus gonna get stronger. U watch me la! No body is gonna bring me down! Im not afraid, to take a stand. I wil go through tis wateva the weather! U can hate me, im the bitch but im a bitch tats goin 2 do a fine damn job! Oh ya, bfore tis doom day i was hapi wan lo. Bought new phone wit my own money. First time so very proud. Then went to c angelina jolie salt. Quite nice le. Not bad. I wil go through wateva god throw at me! Bring it on! Who cares! Fba n amf! Wit my nokia 6700 slide pink! Huh!

who cares

it's alright
im a bloody big mess inside
you can try
but you wont keep me down

i'll lost
im waiting to b found
im angry for the kind of gal im not
but i will b coming back to life

dun write urself off yet
it's jus in ur head u feel left out, look down on
jus try ur best


u know u doin better on ur own
live right now
jus b urself
doesnt matter whether it's gud enough for someone else

it jus take some time
dont wory wat the bitter heart gonna say

take me home

take me down to the paradise city
where the grass is green n there's lotz of money
hahaha


slash is cool man
old but still rocking the thang
hahax

i think gym ppl sort of know im not wat i look like
many of them saw me wit sleeveless
lol
on thurs they got body combat at the concourse there
so after work
my mum feeling down
so she wanna go c even though we never go gym
then i was up for it coz i jus went to sungai wang ma
kekeke

then go there
it was raymond n malay guy doin combat
he aso was there wit his gf
i bet he dont recognise me
nobody c me wear wat i always wear
my sleeveless
my mum fren say wah ur daugther wear like tat so pretty
==
like say im not pretty other times la
lol
i wear like crap to gym n seriously i dun care
tats y ppl dun know me
i think tat day they got a good glimpse at me n my tattoo
lol
good for them =p

watch airbenders
ok jeh
nice effects
simple story
sorcerer better la !

2day went gym 2 hours cozz holiday !
woohoo!
didnt shopping coz nothing special
==
jus bought make up from sasa n a private retailer AVON
not bad

ate jap
makes my day
go home stil eat
stil hungry
but wat can i do
when i wanna eat
i eat
aiks

nike

y 2day title is nike
coz it is reali a good brand
lol
like im promoting it right now
hahahax
mum bought me my new gym clothes from nike !
weeeeee~~~~
awesome man
finaly
2molo can wear liao
next week aso morning leh !
my boss so gud!
thx ! :)

2day lari go home from work
forget to bring hp
lol
jus my luck la

bought baskin robin
totaly love it
fattening again but who cares =p
still sick
get well sooon!
coz 2molo i wanna go gymmie ahhhhhh

my boss say i veri quiet oh
i duno la
i jus like veri diam during work lo
not like in college
i b the soh har soh har gal
aiks
duno y
anyway i jus leave it
everything wil come naturally la