holiday n stupid ns!!!! =.=

firstly..spm over...so i surely veri hapi lo....kakakax....then the stupid ns letter came....all mood gone like the wind =.= shit ns...
then now sick aso...=.='''' never go gym for 5 days adi! =.= hope i dun get fat lo hoh...plzz.....=(

then feli cancel prom so i cant go prom aso...not mean i blame u feli but i reali wanted 2 go! haizzz....

then im veri restlessly wit my pet bro...duno y....suddenly think tat he is veri irritating....=X everytime aso say me tis say me tat....tats y i fed up wit him alreadi....patience aso has a limit ok! tats y i dun wan 2 talk 2 him....ma fan...

canot work during the holiday....argh!!! stupid ns...=.=
holiday is gud...i get 2 sleep late....wake up late....read all the books i wan....
on9 all i wan...so far so gud....but sick...=.= haiz! i wanna go gym! get well soon!
mayb try 2 go 2molo...i dun care...will run like lightning 2 lose the calories
HAHAHAHA =p dun wanna b fat! argh!

so far so gud....=) enjoying my life bfore ns! ugh!

determination

im now more than ever determined in leading a better life!
the more i read the book PRINCESS, the more im agitated 2 bring goodness in life!
such cruelty, such sadness, such evilness, tat i wil never ever imagine in my life, have i not red tis particular book.
it open up my mind, heart n my spiritual soul.
i noe the journey it's goin 2 b tough
however, i wil try my best!

voicing out

im grateful 4 being born in my homeland....even though sometime i wish i was somewhere else....i wil not insult it since it is where i grew up but sometime i dislike the way it handle the country's matters....n the unfairness of it...
but im stil grateful coz i realise there r many many ppl all over the world tat has a worst fate than me.
example, after reading the book PRINCESS, i recommend tat all of u should read it...
women especially, we wil b grateful tat we r born as who we r....except for some unfortunate ones....im sad to say....hope god r wit them...
tis book is about Saudi Arabia n it's lifestyle...from a princee point of view...
the princess did not view her trueself fear tat danger wil fall upon her...
from tat point, i can c tat until tis day....women's right in Saudi Arabia is stil greatly poor....
im halfway through the book now....n im brave 2 say tat im distasteful at all the men mention in tat book!
cruel n brutal men....treat women without respect n dignity....it's like women r jus toys wit no feelings!
the book makes me hate men....but i noe there r stil men wit kind souls out there...
n i hope they r expanding....
n women....plz fight 4 ur rights....dun b monopolize by men....
n plz plz plz....2 everyone out there....dun sell urself or children jus bcoz of money! it's dreadful n sad 2 c that in tis story...those poor ppl sell their little girl...not even past 10 years old....to men tat sexually abuse them 4 their own needs...these evil men! i curse them 4 life....for wat they hav done tat hav harm a innocent child....
i read about it....n i feel disgusted....
i noe u r poor....but family is the most important 2 us....so plz protect them no matter wat happen....
if u dun...they wil suffer in a way tat u canot even imaging....
in the book....there was a religious man...but even he sexually abuse gals!
ugh!!!! yuck!!!
if u hav moral....n practise religion...dun abuse ur power!
use it 4 gud...not evil....
i m not a reali religious person...n i hav sins too...im working on them....
but i believe in my own god....i believe tat ppl tat practise evil deeds wil b punish!
but if u stil wan 2 indulge in evil....plz mix wit those tat wan them too! dun harm the innocent.....stay away from us!
at last....i wil say tat god is always watching.....n therefore i leave it 2 god 2 set about justice....bcoz i noe tat our world is not fair....
i leave it in the hands of god 2 protect the ppl....

tat special guy...

im waiting 4 tat special guy....
mayb like edward cullen in Twilight....
but i hope he is not a vampire! HAHAx....
someone tat play the piano n sparkles....
someone tat can take my breath away....
i can always feel his presence whenever he is near me....its a feeling....hahax....
one twist of my head....n i can c him smiling at me....
he is the music in me...
every song i hear makes me think of him....
he wil lead me dancing as swiftly as butterflies on the dance floor...
he'll hold me tight....arms tat r warm n secure...
his kiss....light n soft....electricuting through my whole body

hapi hapi....quite hapi =)

after gym im always hapi! hehehehe =p
2day quite not myself at skool again....but afterwards it became better..so im relieved....=) hehe
i think im 4getting about him adi...n it's obviously a gud thing =) im hapi about it....hehe...tats the whole reason im writing tis....i can 4get about him!
n i guess its all bcoz im focusing on someone else....it reali helps....=)
im grateful 4 tat someone....i duno whether i wil like tis someone as i do 2 him....
mayb i will....but all is fine now....im keeping it low =) it is best like tis.

im crazy over edward cullen! XD
twilight....so handsome....so mesmerizing! hyperventilating over him XD
mr.edward cullen in my fantasy aso helped me get over him....HAHAx...
thx a lot =)
must c twilight! cant wait!
bella's lullaby is great!
soothe my mood....=)

到底谁才是我的真命天子呢？

不管是想到你,見到你，只要有你，就會幸福的想微笑

当你和她/他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当她离/他开你的视线时，你会
　　急著寻找她/他...
　　你已经爱上她了

当她/他和别人要好时， 你会感到吃不知其味...
　　你已经爱上她了

当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到某个人
你已经爱上她/他了

n u noe ma? i was damn it thinking about him! =.=

如果你真的喜欢她，我该放弃了吗?
但是我还放不了
我不敢对你怀有希望
我只想喜欢你

HAnd pain....

walao wei....spm reali no joke...i duno whether it's jus me or wat.....but i write until hand pain wei =.=!

haizzzz......sobxxx...when tis is over i'll b extremely grateful! =)

cant wait till 2molo 2 gobble all the tasty yummy cake tat i wanna eat.....it's in the frigde @.@
HAHAHAx....i keep on resisting it coz i never go gym due to exam...kekeke....
2molo gonna go gym so i can eat as much as i wan! hooray! =D

u noe it's weird!!! =.= coz when he is there i dun wanna look...then when he is gone...im finding 4 his presence! damn it la...=.=

i noe im not suppose 2 like him anymore but i cant resist it! n im not the one 2 b blame...cant help it tat my eyes r looking 4 him....following him....

i try n try 2 concerntrate on something else but my attention wil always go back 2 him! so sory! >.< cant help it if i like u.....when i noe im not suppose to.....
well, jus let me appreciate the litte time left 2 look at him....haizzzz

song lyrics n wat i feel at the moment! =.=

u're on my mind
u're in my heart
all i wanna do is b wit u, b wit u
there's nothing we cant do, jus wanna b wit u, oni u
no matter where life takes us, nothing can break us apart,
i jus wanna b wit u.......

walk a little slower n open up ur eyes,
sometimes its so hard 2 c the good things passing by,
why not take a crazy change?
why not do a crazy dance?
if u loose the moment u might loose a lot
so why not?
i could b the one 4 u,
mayb yes mayb no,
wat im saying is tat u got 2 let me noe

y when u wanna avoid someone and ignore tat he is there is jus so hard??? =.=
there's wat im goin through now bsides spm
trying 2 avoid him, ignore his presence, yah dah yah dah....blah blah blah....u noe it...u noe wat im talking about....
its a gud thing im sitting in front aso ( Thank God! ) so i wont c him.....
can concerntrate! huh!
i dun care whether he notice, dun notice me, coz the finaly conclusion is tat he adi has a gal he like, so i dun wanna b all crazy hapi jus bcoz i made eye contact wit him coz there is nothing 2 b hapi about!

anyway there's another thing at the moment, but i wont tell u yet....c how it goes first....hmmmm....at least tis wan is better! =)

can i have this dance?

take me hand, take a breath
pull me close and take one step
keep ur eyes lock on mine
let the music b ur guide

Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

graduation day....

woh....a lot of ppl cry....hahax....but i didnt....guess i was not emo enough...
so sory....=p

i think after i noe the truth about.....i was not reali like myself....but i guess it wil past....im not sad or anything.....i jus feel like i dun blend well wit ppl....duno why....hmmm...

i totally wil make sure tat when i go college....i wil try 2 make many frens....n not jump into any stupid relationship like a lighting....=.= i learnt my lesson....n totaly regret it greatly!!! =.=! socialise!

i realise tat frens r the most important thing bsides family! talk about bf? talk about serious wan tat can last......start from dating can la....

i'll miss skool i guess....the uniform....the classes....the nagging....the recess....the punishment....hahax....the morning speeches....hahax......
my frens....love u guys....=) everyone of u.....*hearts*

i've run out of words
i've run out of time
i've run out of reasons
i noe it's over....so it's best tat i dun c u at all
BUT!!!! im gonna face his 'face' during the whole period of spm....wtf...i wan change la....=.= deleting, erasing, canceling!!!!

i used 2 b tripping over, missing u but im not gonna anymore!!! =.=!
im gonna erase u from my mind
coz it's over

change 'boat'...hahax....not 2 insult la...
tats jus a joking way of putting it =p

ain't thinking of u no more
ain't missing u no more

Finaly...

spm is coming....everyone is trying their best....gud luck n best wishes!

sometime u learn it the hard way, sometime u learn it the easy way, i guess i got it the hard way =.=
watching the guy tat u like fall 4 another gal....hmmm...hard but i think is not the hardest yet i guess....hmmmm....
when i think about it, im sad...but if i dun think about it....im actually quite ok =)
so far so gud.....
when i c hapi couples, im kind of jealous....=.= dun wanna b but tats how i feel
sucks rite? i hate it tooo....