stopped....

this day has finaly come
yes
i cant denied it
im sad
im heart broken
but u mmg know adi rite?
tis wan u ownself cari de
is your own fault lo....

you anticipate again the oni 2 days in the week tat u can c him
2day even tie hair properly n wear earrings
but what did u get?
disappointment
2day he standin the middle
he didnt stand bside his gal
i duno y
but he in the middle i cant c him
so he trying to avoid me rite?
haizzzz
totally avoiding me.....

well tis is the end i guess...
no more for me
make me dun feel like goin to comabt on mon n tues
haizzz
cant wait till i training then mayb no need c him anymore....

you look so beautiful today
i tried to look at you but you move away
i guess that means that is not okay
what can i do?
my heart is turning grey....

permenant heartbreak !
i'll jus b by the sidelines
looking at him.....
doin tat is not a crime rite?

lazy lonely gal....

huhuhuh
reali lazy
got assignment n presentation
but im here
slacking
lol
i noe
i will face the consequences later =p

im still thinking of you
can i b blame?
not something i can control
i hate tis part right here
when u r single
dun have anyone to hug
or to lean on
the closest u hav is ur family

u noe
the 3 days when i was alone
coz mum went singa land
n waiting for sis to come back
i was so lonely
i really wanted someone special to b by my side
someone for me to hug
haizzz

after fetch mum n sis from airport
i hugged my mum to sleep in the car
it was the best feeling ever :)
i love family <3
i aso hope i will find u soon
i want you so bad <3

outta my outta my head....

i must b outta my head
coz y m i so loyal to him ?
sometime there is leng chai at gym
but i dun care or dun wanna look at them
hen hao xiao lo
y must b so loyal to him?
mayb ppl jus toying wit u, u pun tak tao ah
must b somehing wrong wit me
not my bf aso so loyal
siao lang
i stil can look at other guys de !

you oni c him twice a week !
one single thing aso duno about him!
siao !

suddenly emo
something wrong wit me
coz now home alone
aiks....
he is nothing but a crush
im sure....
face reality gal !

the meaning of tis....

finaly
the day tat i anticipated has come
first body combat class after 10 days....
i have been dreaming about wat it will be like
but of coz my dream is better than reality

mom followed me
so i was no lonely
of coz saw him la....
d0no wat tis mean....
but jus let me talk the crap of 2day here ok? =p

mom went out first....
so when i went out....
go looking for her....
saw him through glass window...
he adi standing there wit his gf....(I THINK!!!)
u noe y i think?
bcoz they everytime 2gether....
arghhh
idc....
my mum was standing where i can c him veri clearly ==
anyway after tat we jus went in lo
the new floor
lol
reali veri new....
makes the room bigger or it is jus i long time no been inside joh...lol
then the mirrors like so clear
i could c him practically from anywhere....
lol
anyway i try to avoid looking at him at first
but after little while
aiksss
couldnt resist
so sorry....
lol

conclusion is nothing happen ok !
so no big deal
still the same
you know nothing about tis guy....
wats the point?
so exciting to look at him twice a week which will result in nothing?
forget forget forget !
which u apparenty cant unless you stop gointo combat
or he stop goin to combat !
ughhh
see how it goes during july
when training comes
i wont b able to see him anymore....
good or bad?
mayb for the better....

tal
u always hav crushes that would never ever result in anything
it is always moot
so enjoy while u can
bfore it goes away....

robin hood !

wow
im so tired but hapi !
went 2 c robin hood n furry vengeance !
wakakakaka
robin hood is the bomb !
furry vengeance iis jus ur other comedy
but still nice coz got the brandon guy from mummy
russel crowe look so handsome
lol
i know he is old but ada gaya la xD

2day is at midvaley
went there early early
to buy ticket
then makan makan
jalan jalan
buy my black high heel for training n interview
lucky got one :)
then so bought a paper straw hat !
lol
i been wanting a straw hat but all so expensive
im hapi to get tis coz it oni cost me rm15 !!!!
weeeee~~~<3
then of coz bought my mags aso...
hehehe
saw the lollipop phone
feel like wanna buy le.....
huhuhu
take my money go shopping or buy phone eh???
if im buying it
i wanna decide bfore my training lo.....
coz after tat i think i wil lose interest liao....
hmmm
c how it goes
i stil hav time.....

o ya...one more thing....

n i hate of not seeing you !
i may lose interest in you !
i mean im like tat ok....
i dun c the fellow anymore....
so surely my eyes will look around right?
1 week is no joke
especally a guy u dun even noe
u jus look at him oni

irritating !
if he care he should at least come....
but noooo
u dun see him.....
n im tired....
i went after bfore n it fail
i duno whether i can take another wan....
enough heartbreak !

n some ppl cant move on?
like my fren
she reali love her ex
stil will accept him back anytime
n mayb my mum too...
even she dun show
actually stil care about my dad gua....
they r not the oni guy in the world !
but these feelings i wont understand
u cant tell a person to give up when they stilhave feelings
mayb i never reali loved a person bfore....
havent understand it yet

i hate....

u know wat i hate ?
a lot of stuff
lol
who doesnt?
but now im gonna cover on one topic oni i guess
coz its getting on my nerves

someone that is not satisfied wit their own work
dno how 2 improve it themselves
keep saying oh ur wan better la.....which is such a fraud
keep saying oh im gonna fail....blah blah blah....
always last minute
i mean even worse last minute then me leh!
me already bad enough adi lol.....
keep saying from start of sem
oh i got a lot of idea....
i jus duno how 2 put into words....
==
means no idea la....
last time i helped
tis time no way~~~im done helping

o yeah
i aso hate ppl tat not on time
dun past up on time
dun giv me my stuff on time....
==
haiz
unfortunately we have to live wit the weaknesses
i noe
i aso got....
will try to improve
or at least do a better job
not lie around n frut over what is already happen
which u cant change....
dun b so negative ppl !